friends.

So we guys(Pat, Raechell, Lizette, Boan) went to Pacita after the exams. We ate at Shakey's and gahhh, we are so PG! haha. The food was yummy although come to think of it, I'll be eating Shakey's again tomorrow. Well, anyway, after that we went to the parlor to get a manicure. We hadloads of fun there. So here are the pics.

Our nails. Freakin pretty right? Guess which one's mine.


At the parlor. Dang. We're some bitchin' high school girlssss.

suicide.

Damn this day. I feel like I want to die already.

Okay. So we were on duty awhile ago and as the wind was blowing hard and the sun was going down, I was on the 3rd floor and I was apparently looking down 'coz you can't do anything entertaining when you're on duty. I was thinking of jumping off the building. I was thinking, "Would I die if I jumped?" What is wrong with me? So anyway, it's a good thing my hair wasn't fixed so I kept my mind on that. But still, why am I thinking that? Really. How stupid.

That's all. WAAA.

quotes about death.

Lullaby

What I wouldn't give
To have you in my arms again,
Breathe your scent
And snuggle close to you.
I want to watch you sleep,
See your chest rise and fall
In peaceful slumber.
Let me lay my hand
Over your heart,
So I can
Feel it beating
Beneath my touch.
I want to be
Lulled to sleep
By its rhythm.

~~ by Tara Simms

The Cord

We are connected,
My child and I, by
An invisible cord
Not seen by the eye.

It's not like the cord
That connects us 'til birth
This cord can't been seen
By any on Earth.

This cord does it's work
Right from the start.
It binds us together
Attached to my heart.

I know that it's there
Though no one can see
The invisible cord
From my child to me.

The strength of this cord
Is hard to describe.
It can't be destroyed
It can't be denied.

It's stronger than any cord
Man could create
It withstands the test
Can hold any weight.

And though you are gone,
Though you're not here with me,
The cord is still there
But no one can see.

It pulls at my heart
I am bruised...I am sore,
But this cord is my lifeline
As never before.

I am thankful that God
Connects us this way
A mother and child
Death can't take it away!

Author Unknown

i feel depressed.

And this is not some "I-got-dumped-by-a-guy" drama. Puhleeeassse. I feeel so depressed. I want to scream, hit things and pull my hair out.(Morbid?) Well, to get to the story, my tito's baby died just today. Tita Moleth(his wife) was in labor last night and unfortunately, today his little boy is gone. I feel so depressed and sick. I mean, the baby hasn't even seen the world yet. More importantly for my beloved aunt and uncle, I feel sorry for them. I mean, for Tita Moleth to have you carry that baby for 9 months and you'll find out it's dead? My mom said my tito was crying while he was telling the story. I feel his pain so much. And to think it's Christmas. Last Saturday when they were here, I was listening intently to Tita Moleth's stories about her trip to her OB. How she's due next week, and the like. Gawd. I feel so sick. It's so painful.

The death of a baby is like a stone cast into the stillness of a quiet pool;
the concentric ripples of despair sweep out in all directions,
affecting many, many people.
--De Frain, 1991

Months...smonths

Tagged by Maj darlin.

* Mention the name of the person who tagged you and create a link back to them.
* Copy-paste the traits for all the 12 months.
* Pick your birth month.
* Bold the traits that apply to you.
* Tag 12 people and let them know by visiting their sites and hit them with a comment.
* Let the person who tagged you know when you’ve done it.

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer.Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Now tagging...
Aleli, Janela, Kriselle, Gazell, Leigh, Anj, Mi-ann, Niknok, Queenbee Casey, Rain, Ayelle and Grace.

omg.

Hmm. All alone at home. Well, not exactly but, Mom and Dad are away to celebrate their 16th wedding anniversary. Nikka's away too for her recollection. So who's stuck at home babysitting Anton? ME. Not really that bad, but I guess it gets absolutely annoying at times. haha. He's funny though.

That's all I can share for this day, I guess.

some blah that i'm posting.

Nothing special happened today. Although, the best part in school was we had NO teachers for 2 periods. No, make that 3. CVE time was alloted for the Christmas Carols practice. Guess what we good people of the Star Section did. WE MADE NOISE, instead. We played Wish, a new card game I learned just this week. It's really addictive. So that's the GREAT things a star section can do.

Lo and behold! Geometry was NOT fun even though the teacher was absent due to colds. She left an über hard seatwork and I did it while listening to music which helped at least. I also kept reading Noli Me Tangere which is weird 'coz I don't normally get hooked on Filipino novels because I find it hard to understand. (As much as I love reading, Filipino makes my nose bleed profusely)

Mapeh. We were supposed to be playing Table Tennis(which I suck at), but since our teacher was not there AGAIN for some reason, we did our Integrated Projects. (see post below) We added the border and man, it looks oh-so cool now.

I forgot to bring my cam to take a picture again of our project but I will, tomorrow! It rocks BIG TIME. haha. Anyway, I haven't done what Nelson was asking me to do so I have to goooo. Aww.

Toodles, fans!♥

yeaaaa righttt.

I had so muchhh fun today. Likewise, I hated my day. HUH? The irony huh? Oh well, no need to elaborate further. I just took a lot of pics today since I brought my cam to school. So, I took them pics of us working on the Integrated Project thingy which is absolutely ADORABLE and I loveeeeed doing it. Anyway, I'll post the pics now and I don't have anything good to say anyway soooo...

Krizelle & Roan working on the project.

Our project!!!!

OHH YEAA. I forgot. Some loser commented on my old blog, which is MELANCHOLIC PRINCESS.
Yeaaa. SO that. She was all, like, "Di ko nagets mayabang, i'm CONFUSE, why you like a guy who dont like you?" And I was all, "How cynical. YOU SUCK." Serves her righttt. HAHA.

i feeel....

1. the reason you are where you are
right now?
-because of my family, friends and GOD.

2. the reason you wake up in the
morning?
-i have to go to schooool.

3. the reason you love your favourite
song lyrics?
-they soothe me.

4. the reason of the way you're
feeling today?
-tired? i always feel like this.

5. the reason when you fall in love
with someone?
-I FREAKIN DO NOT KNOW.
"The heart knows REASONS reasons does not know."

7. the reason you went out on saturday
night?
-i haven't been going out.

8. the reason you laugh out loud?
-because there's something funnyyy i guess?

9. the reason you wake up late on
weekend?
-because i'm sleeepyyy.

10. the reason you read a magazine?
-i dunno. my bible. HAHA.

11. the reason you watch television?
-it's because that's entertainment.

12 . the reason you yell all the time?
-NAKAKAINIS kasi my voice e.

13 . the reason you hate someone so
much?
-she SUCKS.

14 . the reason you throw stuff from
your closet?
-because i get pressured because i'm sooo sloww when it comes to dressing up.

1 5 . the reason you feel weak or
strong?
-i feel strong because i have confidantes.

1 6. the reason you gossip
-i dunno. i don't usually gossip though.

17 . the reason you call someone, late
at night
-'coz i like tooo?

18 . the reason you go to grocery
store?
-to buy essentials.

19. the reason you failed your
accounting exam?
-i'm pretty sure i would fail if i had accounting.

20. the reason you love/hate yourself?
-because that's just the way it is.

21. the reason behind why Ateneo lost
to lasalle for the twice to beat
advantage?
-because Ateneo was giving them a chance since they got suspended last time. HAHA.
big laugh.

nuffin better to do. :)

lalala. I don't have anything better to do. We're in the computer lab. YIPEE!
i'm looking at the pics of my one and only, IKUTA TOMA.
will post pics sooonn.

but beware, THE ROCKSTAR IS THE KEEPER OF HIS HEART.

stressed outtt.

I am still stressed out especially these past few days. I dunno why, but I always ALWAYS feel sleepy in class. I'm not usually like that and it SUCKS baaaad 'coz I can't seem to concentrate on ANYTHING. Enough of that. HAHA.

Drafting. What is up with it? Okay, so it may be training for our future engineers but then again, WHAT THE HECK AM I DOING DRAFTING? Just because it's graded and everything doesn't mean I should put all my efforts in it. I'd rather put it in something worthwhile and not in stupid drawings.

I'm looking for a new layout for my blog. So if you have any suggestions, please do tell me. I'd appreciate a LOT. HAHA.

Ciao for now.

depressing.

Stupid people who think they have the RIGHT to hurt people. And to think they WERE and yes, I am emphasizing WERE because they are, at this moment, no longer my friends. They f*cked it up with us real bad.

Okay, so I know I'm not supposed to mope and get all mad about this because after all, I am initially not supposed to be part of the affected party. But the conflict blew out of proportion and we got in the situation. And now, we're the ONES who have to make an effort to reconcile with you.

I don't think so. After f*cking it up with us, I hate you for it. ALL OF YOU. YOU HURT US AND IT DID PERMANENT DAMAGE. And don't think that after reconciling with us, we'll go back to what we were, BECAUSE WE WON'T. And I was stupid to believe in you, in the first place. And to treat you as my friends, my comrades and I SHARED MY SECRETS WITH YOU, for Pete's sake. And now, you don't even give a damn about US.

I cried buckets of tears a few meters away from you, and you still wouldn't comfort me. What the hell. You were with me in my moments of sadness but now, YOU CAN'T. How insensitive of you to do that. Do you guys feel any superiority by hurting US like that? Do you have no choice? I always believe that THERE IS A CHOICE because there is. For you guys to tell us that there is no choice, that is just pure BULL.

I had to let this out because I trusted you guys. And I have never been BETRAYED IN THIS DEGREE EVER. This is accounted as my worst high school experience. And done by a lot of people who I keep close to my heart. I've no respect for you anymore. YOU MADE US STUPID IN THE HIGHEST LEVEL POSSIBLE.

This is too much, but I feel anger so I will let it out. I want to shred you to pieces and beat you up and if that isn't enough, I want you to fall off a building. This is the first time that I'm wishing something MORBID for the guys who I'm furious with, so you can tell I'm MAD.


Get a life, people.

I got tagged by Anj.

7 truths about me

1. I'm a person who is not afraid to speak her mind.
2. I hate social climbers.
3. I hate emos too. They're the worst possible people here on earth.
4. I am a writer.
5. You get sarcasm when you talk to me.
6. I take pictures of people who do PDA.
7. I love to take pictures especially candid shots.

Rules:
* Mention the person who tagged you and create a link back to them.
* Pick 10 others you would like to get to know better.
* Let them know you’ve tagged them by leaving a comment on their blog.
* And don’t forget to give them the rules.

ayoko nang magtag. you can get this nalang.

BAGUIOOO.

Colegio San Agustin Biñan has recently participated in the 49th Annual National Convention by CMLI. It's theme was "Behind the Scenes of Mass Media: Is It Real or Reel? CMLI and the Promotion of Media Awareness" It was held Oct. 27-31 in Teachers Camp, Baguio City.

We bagged the following awards:

1st place-Newswriting
Erika Ramos

1st place-Poster Making
Jeremiah Idanan

1st place-OPM Solo Singing
Chiara Cataran

1st place-Talent Variety Show
ALL OF US!

2nd place-Quartet Singing
Chiara Cataran, Krissy Salinas, Ion Ventocilla and Jessa Rili

3rd place-Hiphop Dancing
CJ Camba, Ailene Padua,Arnold Rubio, MOI, Roan Buenaventura, Lizette Sina-on and Camille Cruzada

Did I miss anything else? We bagged it. yey. Congrats people. We deserve it naman.

Anyhoo, I miss them all. Aww. We had so much fun lalo na sa Disco Socials. Too bad, the 4th years won't be joining next year. WAAA. They'll be off to college. OH MAN.

Some pics:
L to R: Camille, Joash, Roan, Ate Ice, Kuya Maya, Ate Giemae, Arnold, Me. TOP: Zette

Back: Veve, Kuya Arwin, Ate Jessa, Kuya Don, Khalil, Kuya Kynneth
L to R: Joash, Ate Ion, Ate Chir, Me, Camille, Zette, Roan, Arnold, Crisel, Ate Neory and Kuya Ivan.


Top Row: Arnold, Ate Jazza, Joash
center: ME!
Next Row: Camille, Zette
Bottom: Kuya Maya and Ate Giemae


MISS THEM! aww.

popo.

WHAT IF, ANG CRUSH MO AY:

1. nagtanggal ng t-shirt niya sa harap mo?
-machooo. haha. nice one. PIPIKIT AKO. bata pa ako.

2. ay may bagsak na grade?
- wala yun.

3. naka-3 points sa basketball?
- AYYY! sisigaw ako. haha.

4. niyaya ka maging prom date niya?
-that won't happen.

5. ay nadisgrasya?
- mmmm. aalagaan.

6. niyaya ka manood ng sine kasama niya?
- okay lang.

7. hinawakan kamay mo?
- nyek. hoy, tsansing! haha.

8. natamaan ka ng bola?
- langya ka. haha.

9. nilibre ka?
-ayos. mayaman ka tol.

10. inakbayan ka?
- nakooo. haha.

11. pinagtripan ka?
- mas malakas ang trip ko.

12. kinuha id mo?
- wag.

13. nabunggo ka?
- langya ka.

14. inasar ka?
- sus. ako pa.

15. niyakap ka na lng bigla galing sa likod mo?
- yieeee. kikiligin ako sabay, "DI AKO STUFFED TOY!"

16. sinabi sayo "i love you"?
- aww. i love me too.

17. nangutang sayo?
- ayaw ko nga.

18. hindi binayaran utang niya?
- walanjo.

19. pinasahan ka ng load kahit hindi mo kelangan?
- yeaaa naman.

20. tinawagan ka sa bahay?
- bababaan ko. haha.

21. nakausap mo hanggang madaling araw?
- sus. nagawa na. haha.

22. niyaya ka kung pwede ka maging gf/bf niya?
- ngayon? AYAW. yieee.

always tired.

Yeah, I am. I'm always tired. Our competition in Baguio is nearing and so we have to do extra time for our practices for the Talent Variety Show(TVS) and the Hiphop dancing. Hiphop is seriously wacko but I can deal with it.

I LOVE OUR TALENT VARIETY THINGY! It is so freakin funnn. haha. I get to be the stupid contestant on Eat Bulaga's "Itaktak Mo" segment. Dialogue will be:

CJ(host): Anong pangalan mo ate?
Me: JANINEEEE POOOOO!
CJ: Bakit ka tataktak?
Me: PARA PO SA PAMILYA KO!(at boyfrend na koreano. NGEK. la ko nun.)

Itaktak mo. haha.


I so freaking loooove it. CMLI is so near na. haha. Yeaaaa, we can do it! GO AUGUSTINIANS! ROCK ON!

why not us?

Manny Pacquiao. Pacman. He's the most recognized boxer. The best in his field.

This is not a bash to Manny "Pacman" Pacquiao. In fact I am congratulating him for winning in the Will to Win 2.

Why only Manny?

Doctors, nurses, medical aids, domestic helpers, cooks and many more OFWs work and yet they don't get same recognition from the Filipinos as Manny does. When Manny goes back after his matches, he is greeted with a warm welcome. Maybe a parade at that. Courtesy calls are often practiced.

But when our OFWs get recognized, we don't even give a damn. It is true. That's the harsh reality. Yet they even endure more than just boxing in a ring or bruises. They endure emotional pain of not being with their families. WHY DO WE FILIPINOS NOT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT OUR HEROES? We give more importance to the people who just box, shoot a ball and throw in a field. Isn't it good to recognize a new hero? A deserving recognition is what we should be able to pay in return to these people. They do not only suffer from the pains of being away from their families and homeland and yet, when they show us that they are really proud Pinoys, we disregard them.

I guess I can now understand why some Filipinos get white-washed. It's because they are martyrs in their own right, yet they never get thank yous from their relatives. I am not blaming all, but there are some relatives who don't give a damn even if you stay abroad just as long as they get good money. It is the harsh reality after all. This condition is inevitable.

Let's help change it people. RECOGNIZE THOSE PEOPLE! PROUD TO BE PINOY!

***Regarding sa issue that I hate OPM stuff, I hate OPM bands. They're not my type. But I didn't say I hate all OPM. OPM bands like CHICOSCI(yeah, i hate 'em) are posers. I'm saying what I want here. So if you don't like what I'm saying, get the hell out.

runaway.

Run. Run as fast as I can. Run to the ends of the world. Run like there's no tomorrow.

It's difficult to live in this cruel world. I don't know what I'll face. There are problems, crises and the other things I don't want to talk about. Oh how I wish, just for a day. I could run to an island, sleep all day without worries, without people bothering me. I'd be all happy for that day. I'd be smiling on that day. I just want to run as fast as I can to someplace where nobody knows me, nobody cares for me. And no, I'm not emo.

I saw this quote today. "You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back." Yeah, right. I don't totally agree. I loved HIM but I lost. I lost, didn't I? I still can't forget him, though I'm not in love with him anymore. I LOVED HIM.

I want to run away. I do. XC

strange.

Something super strange happened to me. I was sleeping in my mom's bedroom since they were away. I was with my sibs and they were sleeping. I was sleeping my ass off na rin. Then suddenly that f'd up radio suddenly played. Spooky and it was playing, "Torete". I listened to it and somehow I still don't know the reason because for some reason, I think it was implying something. Although I am not in love with anybody as far as I know. OMG. What the f is happening?

the integrated project.

ANCIENT ROME. Our topic for the integrated project. Our group was supposed to portray the religion of Rome. As we all know, there are gods there and goddesses. We had the project last Thursday and it was a success, I think. Although there were wrinkled foreheads, hot heads and raised eyebrows, we managed to pull it off. So congratulations, JOHN STONE!

our god and goddesses.



So there. Do I look like a Roman Princess? Anyway, after all that preparations, we finally did the presentation. Overall, it looked great.

Yipee for us..

tragic.

Something tragic happened yesterday though no one got hurt. My mom got sideswiped by a jeep yesterday. And it wasn't her fault. Mannn, people like that are big fat morons.

It makes me so mad. She could've gotten hurt, so could've my siblings. grr.

MORONS. they never learn.

field trip.

I had a blast today. It was our educational field trip and the destination? Seven Lakes in San Pablo, Laguna. Here's the full update.(i think)

Assembly was around 5.30-6 am? I got to school earlier since I'll be getting those jackets. BUT, sad to say, it wasn't there yet. So we panicked since we ARE BANNED from getting those jackets done. What a stupid rule, huh? So anyway, it finally came and we boarded the bus. Buddy was ROAN, of course. Thanks.

We stopped by a gas station to go to the restroom, buy extra food and the like. Took some pictures. Then, we went on our way. We visited Bunot Lake first. Lecture and it was raining. A BIGGIE THANKS TO BJ for not letting me get wet. I think, but he got tired and I just went ahead. So I got wet anyway.

We finally went to Kalibato Lake. Lecture. Muddy place.

PANDIN LAKE. the best. We started off by getting in the lake. We were wading and we played tug of war with the other section. Then, the hard challenge came. We had to climb a muddy steep path to get to the view of the YAMBO lake. haha. So it was hard but gladly SEAN helped me and my clumsy body and I got up and down from the mountain safely. Thanks. By the way, we also got on a raft and when we were about to get off, my foot fell into a hold in the middle. It still hurts. haha.

SAMPALOC LAKE Nice and pretty. Real pretty. I shouted at some guys 'cox they SUCKED.

Thanks, John Stone. I'm not forgetting this.

I'm going to post pics on my multiply. LAB LAB.

Night, I'm hella sleepy na.

Wow. I'm just so in the mood today that's why I'm going to blog about this.

One thing I haven't blogged about as much. MY PARENTS.

Mom: She's so über HYPER and that's one thing I loveee about her. She's so full of life. She is insane though, like me. lol. And I love the small things she does 'coz she's not working anymore so she's driving us to school everyday and buys the stuff we need. So I am grateful for that. Plus we always talk. I can't keep secrets from her. haha. I love my mom.

Dad: Superr corny. But he just tries to make an effort of making us smile. And before, I would often get mad at him. As in superrr. Almost all the time. But then, he changed and I matured.(i guess) And he's really caring. That's why I love my dad.

Aww. I love them. And I'm lucky to have them.

I LOVE YOU MA AND DADDY!

things i hate.

Food:
I do hate pork. As in. At first, it was just kind of a health diet thingy, tapos I didn't get to like it na. haha.

Fruits:
DURIAN! it's so SMELLY. grr. Makes me super pissed if my parents have them, so it's like, real smelly sa house.

Veggies:
Not that I know of. haha.

People:
Liars, stupid people, copycats, whores, sluts, FLIRTS, desperate people.

Event:
Rejection. Yeah, that totally sucks.

TV shows/ movies:
corny telenovelas. I mean, gross. Who'd have so much DRAMA in their life?

Music:
OPM bands who think they're emo and they're all that when they're not. STUPID.

Household chore:
Laundry, man. And all of them. I hate all of them. haha.

Thing/s Around the World:
People who don't think. People who discriminate. They don't have the right.

Thing/s About Myself:
I do curse. That sucks. And I'm sooooo not upfront and everything.

I'm really lazy. So I'm not tagging anybody.

what's the hurry, huh?

I guess I can call it a day today. I'm kinda stressed out. But, I guess I'm fine.

I guess I'm kinda finished with the love life thingy. It isn't working for me, you know? haha. I can only keep up with crushes and not-so-serious stuff 'coz I really want a serious one. I don't want some stupid puppy love fling where you LIE to your partners. That's not healthy, you know? How do you expect to trust a person when he's a liar? Oh well. That's life. I still remain happy about the decisions I made and I have no regrets. Regrets just suck the lessons to be learned.

I was in deep thought while with Hanna awhile ago and a memory just whizzed by. I wasn't as happy as this. I know I'm wishing I'm in love but I am happy right now. I don't think I need to rush, nor get ahead. Time will come. He'll come without me expecting him. I don't want to be desperate. That's the LAST thing I'd want to be.

Besides, I'm 15 years young. What's the hurry, right?

new layout.

I am currently loving my layout. I just love the lollipops. haha.

Booo. I haven't quite updated this thingy so I'll make bawi. We had our exposure trip(Biochem) last Friiidaaayyy. And it was so fun. I enjoyed. We visited the ever so cool Science Centrum which is probably the most interesting and the best of all the stops. We visited PAGASA and PHIVOLCS(boring) and the shoe museum. Imelda's collection of shoes are so HEAVENLY. I am serious. I felt like I was in shoe heaven.

After the trip, we stopped by Starbucks and ate. Then we watched Augustinian Idol. I'm not commenting on this. haha.

I have a headache yet again and it's a good thing I'm not doing that stupid portfolio.
love you all.

plain stupidity.

I just realized that my blog posts haven't been all that positive, I guess. It's just that I need some pampering because I am hella stressed. Plus this issue with ahmm, I guess I shouldn't say. It is a personal issue that I'm not actually dealing with. But I guess I'm involved. haha.

So anyway, that so called "thing" has just pissed me off. Just shows plain stupidity and I wish that if I'd close my eyes, it would go away. I feel so bad for my friend. aww.


This totally sucks. I'm changing my layout by the way. yeabaaa.

spoiled.

The day was as stressful as it could be and I'm still stressed up to now. I have got a lot of things to do and I don't even know where to start. I didn't train, I did the thingy for my portfolio and the like. But I forgot to buy that stupid copper wire for TLE. So anyway, I was about to cry 'coz that's our practical exam when I got the stupid idea to go down and buy. It was almost freaking 8.00 pm. SO my mom with a pissed look, drove me to the nearest hardware shop[thanks DIY!]. And she was freaking fast. WOW. haha. I finally bought that stupid wire and we went home. I just realized now that I am SOOOOO spoiled.

Spoiled in a way that the things I need, I need it now. I guess that's one bad trait.

omg.

This is why I hate insecure people. Now you may not know, but I do absolutely hate insecure people. They suck the fun out of everything. They feel like they're all that and more. And people who're not them? They make them feel worthless. I feel sorry for those insecure people. They don't have nothing good to do in life.


WOW. I rock. haha.

i wanted everything.

I'm changing my font 'coz this is the font that I use in Teentalk.

So you guessing why that's my title? Well, I still do want everything. I want to be a better daughter, a better friend and a better lover. lol. I'm kidding. haha. As of now, I'm still unlucky in love and I don't hate it but I'm starting not to love it either. Remember my post when I got so jealous of lovers? Well, I still am. It's different to have someone care about you so much that sometimes, it hurts. I want someone to finally hold my hand, hug me when I feel scared and take care of me when I'm sick.

So all yah people who know me, know that I hate messages like this, "kumain ka na ba? Kain ka na. masama magpalipas ng gutom." I still hate that. But I guess if you love the person, you wouldn't mind at all. I wouldn't. I guess the search is on again. Except I won't be the one searching now. They should be. I'm tired.

I still LOVE being single. But it'd be BETTER if I had someone to call MINE.

a year older. but not wiser.

it is almost my birthday. yey. I'm turning 15 and I don't feel like 15. I'm childish and immature. So that's why. I still remember my 13th birthday. I was hella excited then because I was to be called a teen for the first time which was somewhat exciting at that point. I also remember my 14th birthday which was cool because. well. secret. But, now, it's gonna be the best birthday ever. haha.

Anyway, I saw hot cadet awhile ago. but i stil didn't talk to him. what the. I know. For a girl, I'm so effin torpe. Nakakainis. If I could talk to him. Blahhh. Any tips? He's a senior by the way.


6 days till my birthday. Ü

HOT.

my latest addictions.

It's official. I am addicted to the number 5. You see, I love the bands The Click Five and Maroon 5. Love. haha. Okay, okay. So I love their vocalists. Anyway, I'm posting pics so you could all see the hotness of these bands.
HOT RIGHT? haha.

ANSELMO POLANCO
Aww. I miss this section. I really do. They made me laugh and cry. We all learned what a corpuscle is and we all had prowess in different aspects. We had a strange affinity to cards. err pusoy dos. lol. We were tenacious at some point. aww. I miss them. Anyway, here's a video of the pics we took in sophomore year. haha. Miss them. Miss you guys.

Ciao. haha.

love the drama.

Joey's article:

“Una, pwede bang magharap kayo sa akin ng tao na nagpa-transplant ng puso na nagtagal ang buhay?! Pwede talaga, pero pwede bang magtagal?

“Pangalawa, lalo na sa panahon ngayon, ang daling magpalit ng pamilya ng mga tao. ‘Yung iba nga may pamilya dito, may pamilya duon eh. Sa showbiz na lang—ilan sa inyo at sa atin ang nagpalit na ng pamilya?

“Sa totoo lang, ito ang mas tumpak—ang puso natin ay mahirap palitan, pero ang pamilya pwede—at pwede pang dagdagan.

“At eto pa ang isang dumadagundong na katotohanan—pwede tayong mabuhay nang walang pamilya, pero hindi tayo pwedeng mabuhay ng walang puso.[my point, Kathleen]

“Alam nyo, may art din yung pagsundot at patama. But naturally, all these are ‘tuksuhan lang.’ Tayong lahat ay may mga pinagsamahan. Magkikita at maaring magkasama rin tayo balang araw. Kaya, walang pikunan. Paliwanagan lang. Biruan lang. Teasing is not bad. Cheating is… on TV!”

First of all, I don't know if I'm supposed to be blogging about this. I'm 14 and I may not know a lot of things but I have to have a say in this.

I am one of the few people who do NOT watch noontime shows. I find them boring and I could do away with something else. But the controversy with that Wilyonaryo thing just pisses me off. How can you say that it was a mechanical glitch? Whichever way you look at it, it isn't. Stupid, if you ask me.

Willie shouldn't have reacted to Joey's article. After all, no name was mentioned, right? HOw can you react when it isn't even about you? Another stupid thing. But then again, it's different for everyone. I don't want to be the be all and end all of it.

INTRAMURALS

Finished na ang Intrams. Boo. I didn't even enjoy it. I was feeling hella feverish for the past few days and I'm still coughing my lungs off. Anyway, I want to share this video since it's really cool and I'm in it. Okay, okay. I'm just part of the background, but whatever. Starring: Renin, Mark, Bori and all the people in the background.

I'm putting the link since it takes omega time to download it.

click.

CAT TRAINING

Hell. You read right. I'm undergoing training for the CAT this Friday. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I mean, I am kikay. So I may complain. But I want to try something new. It'll be a big change. I can do it. (",)

Ciao. We have to be going to a party. I'mma see my crush. Woot!Ü

i'm over it and HIM.

I am officially over him. I'm tired of waiting, of sacrificing myself for nothing. He was a dream I thought I could reach. But I was wrong. Yeah. I was so wrong.

I can't wait for him forever. I just can't.

still sick.

I am still sick. I think. Haha. But I can't afford to leave my blog, can I? So anyway, we went to the College department's booth which was a horror house. Or room, if you're being more realistic. So anyway, I though is was so über corny but I was super kaduper wrong. The ghosts there were chasing us. Creepy. But when we got out, we just laughed our butts off. haha. So I sympathize with Kathleen and Lizette because they took a dive when they were getting out. We also watched Moses, Moses, a play by Dulaang Kruhay. Nice Echel! That was a cool performance.

Anyway, I have to drink medicine. Muahx.

feverish.

Lalala. I had a fever awhile ago and I have a migraine. This sucks. Just when I was supposed to be passing articles, I get a fever. Haha. I'm finished with 2 articles? haha. Anyway, this will be a busy week so the best of luck to me!

8 random facts. oh?

I was tagged by Ate Danika.

What I should do is post 8 random facts about myself and then tag 8 other people to do the same.

1. hmm. I wanted to be a doctor but I hated blood. Ironic huh?

2. All my siblings, including me, were born Cesarean.

3. I read the dictionary.[I am so weird.]

4. Before, I loved mimicking other people's voices. Now, I have an original voice. haha.

5. I also collected scented candles before. If you call, 4 pieces of candles a collection. haha.

6. I love wrestling with my brother.

7. I'm a proud Catholic.

8. I swam like a duck when I was little.[Want proof? Watch my home video. haha.]

Now I tag: Ayelle, Anj, Kath, Boan, Arnold, Ana, Mackee and Bianca.

what?!

Instructions: Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

[ETO NA NAMAN?]

1. I love chinitos. But they got to be rich, and kind. hah.[So nangarap ako?]

2. After I eat in the morning, I go back to sleep. haha.

3. I love taking pictures of anything.

4. I can't sleep without a blanket. or blankey. waha.

5. I love eating Jap food. I can eat 8 pieces of maki!

6. I love taking über wacky pics. haha.

Now I tag: Ate Danika, Ate Nik, Janela, Kriselle, Boan and Arnold. :]]

the evolution of my bookworming.

Everybody knows I am a bookworm. I buy 3 books a week. haha. And I finish a book in a day or two days at most except when I am busy. So I'm sharing you the evolution of my bookworming.

grade 1. I'm obsessed with fairy tales and Barbie books. I am serious. I still have the complete set. Also here, I read the Little Prince which I think was stupid, because at that time, I didn't understand it yet. Now I do.

grade 2. I'm still reading Barbie books.

grade 3. I am now evolving. I'm reading non-fic and I Wonder Why books. It's nice.

grade 4. I am now reading the Trojan war. I don't know what got me interested in that. But it was so interesting.

grade 5 and 6. I'm reading The Baby-Sitters Club. Which is fantastic by the way.

1st year and 2nd year- reading teen books. My eyes are opened to different things.

At present. I am still reading teen books plus reading Nicholas Sparks' and Mitch Albom's novels. Real cool.

So there you have it. I absolutely adore books. And I can't wait to have a new room. I want toooooo so bad. I'm tired of having to share the bed which was supposed to be all mine since my sis is supposed to be sleeping at the top bunk. Grr.

an excerpt from my story.

So here's an excerpt of my story. haha. hope you click ME. and enjoy.

Baby, now that I found you

Baby,now that I found you
I won't let you go
I'll build my world around you

I need you so…
Baby, even though…
You don’t need me now…

Baby, baby..
When first we met…
I knew in this heart of mine…

That you were someone
I couldn’t forget…

Spent my life looking for that somebody…
To make me feel like new...

Now, you tell me
That you wanna leave me…

But darling, Ijust can’t let you…

Now that I found youI won’t let you go
I built my world around youI need you so
Baby even though...
You don’t need me now…

I stopped my iPod. I was playing my favorite song. I know I can’t relate but it’s still perfect… for me. I guess.

Lemme introduce myself. I’m Anastasia Maria Davis. I’m 16 and I live here in the United States. I’ve been here since FOREVER. My dad’s American and my Mom? Well, she’s a Filipina. So as to my looks, I have black hair but a very American face. I’m fair. And I’m tall. Like 5’8”. But mind you, I almost don’t know how to speak Tagalog. I guess I never tried to learn it. I live in New York. The best city in the world. I’m a normal kid. I am a fashionista at heart. Who wouldn’t be in New York?

Now, you know me. Oh, by the way I go to William C. Peterson Prep School.[author’s note: school is fictional.] Yes, I go to a private school. They treat me as the most popular girl there. But I’m not.

So, let’s get back to that boring Saturday morning. I’m still in my room. I haven’t eaten breakfast yet. So I went down and ate my breakfast. My parents are not here, as usual. I’m not surprised since they’ve been like that since I was born. I got up again and decided to go shopping. I called up Chelsea, my best friend ever.


Hey Chels, you wanna go shopping with me?



Yeah, sure. I’m kinda in need of skirts. Haha.

Oh, okay. So let’s meet like in the mall, kay?



Sure.

I dressed up and did my hair. I’m born straight so my hair’s kinda boring. I got the keys to my car and drove to the mall. I saw Chelsea and we shopped until we dropped. Hah. I got a credit card, you know.

Hey Asia, are we going now? I need to be home by 9 pm. My mom wants to discuss things.

Sure. Let’s go.

We went home. When I got home, my mom and dad were waiting for me….

And they usually don't. What could be up?

Oh. Hey guys.

Hey, princess. Can we talk to you?

Sure. What's up?













Your mom and I were thinking of sending you to the Philippines.




What? But I can’t. New York is my home. My life’s here! Why are you ruining my life??



Honey. You need to learn your culture and at the same time, being without us. You’ll finish your school year there. Don’t worry, honey. We have a house there. And you still have maids there and a driver. We just want you to be okay if we’re not there.


I don’t think I have a choice.


I got up and went to my room. I’m gonna miss New York. Most of all, I’m gonna miss my friends and…


My boyfriend.

Yup, you heard right. I do have a boyfriend. We’ve been going steady for 2 years now. How will I say this to him? How can I leave him?

Somebody’s knocking on my door.



Honey. I want you to pack your things starting tomorrow. You’ll be going to the Philippines next week.



I hate them. It’s late now. I’m still awake. I’m lying here in bed and thinking of what will happen to me when I go to the Philippines. My cell phone vibrated and I answered it.

Hello?

yan. enjoy. haha.

it's done. and i'm still busy.

This sucks. Our exams are finally over. But I'm not so sure about that Geom exam. I am swearing it. Grr. I still have at least 10[or more?] articles for the Herald. I cannot believe how busy I am. This super kaduper sucks. But I can do this. Yea, babyyy. haha. This is my 100th post by the way and I am so happy. yey. In a span of almost 4 months, I already have 100 posts. Yey.Ü

You can help me celebrate by dropping by my blog and commenting.

♥♥♥,

j.

insane.

I am nearing my 100th post. Only 1 more post to go. So anyway, I am supposed to be studying for the Periodical Test. This is the last day. But I have to do an article on Ninoy and it is supposed to be due tomorrow. I haven't done 3 more articles and the deadline is almost near. I have to squeeze my mind to think of what to write in the articles. Anyway, I just dropped by to say that suko na ako sa Chemistry. Seriously. Kamusta naman ang pointers namin di ba? p. 1-100. Hay nako. But I have to study so I can pass.

xoxoxoxo. take care.

happy birthday!

Happy Birthday to my dearest LOLO! We visited him in the cemetery awhile ago. We prayed the Rosary and ate donuts! Haha. Told you it was a celebration. Hay. I miss my Lolo. The food he used to prepare. Yum. He played with us. I miss him. So anyway, we also had pansit & adobo. Yey. So delish. I'd just like to say, I love my lolo and I miss him.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,LOLO!

By the way, I drank wine so I dunno if I'll be able to study. haha. But I looooovvvveeee Novellino. And I didn't exercise. But I guess I still am happy. Does red wine cause endorphins? haha.

i love dreams.

Ok. So I don't really love dreams. I just like them. But, I had such an awesome dream last night that I couldn't bear to not blog about it. SO here it goes.

I was near an abandoned house. And it was old and scary. As I went inside[don't ask. I have no clue why I went inside.], I looked at the place. It really was old except for one part of the house that was really elegant for some reason. I looked further and I noticed a room. I went inside and lo and behold! A guy was there. He looked really sick and of course, I took care of him. It seemed that we grew closer.

The next scene. We were in school. It was so hard to describe but I think I could. We were somewhere near the lockers. My friend called me up.[a guy] For no reason at all, he hugged me. So HE[the first guy], looked kinda angry and I approached him and said, "Ano ba problema mo?" He just looked at me and said nothing. He hugged me.

The last scene. I logged onto my Friendster and I saw his profile. There, his shoutout said, "So? Alam kong hindi na ako tatagal, pero basta't alam kong nandyan ka,ok na. 0910..." Then I woke up.

It seems like I do know a lot about him. He's sick, his mother doesn't take care of him. So that explains his part of the house. I just can't explain the feeling I had when I woke up. My initial reaction was, "Who are you?". Then up to when I was going to school, my heart was beating so fast. It was like magic. I know that's so clichè but that was what I felt. Who was that? I'm just wondering. He was chinito, about 5'9, and maputi.

Anyhow, I'm going. I want to sleep and I haven't studied yet.

out of this world.

I am such a weirdo. Who would go reading a dictionary on such a day? Haha. I'm kidding. But I do read the dictionary occasionally. I am weird, what'd I tell you? So it's pretty gray outside and I am guessing and NOT HOPING it'll rain again. I was up so late last night. I mean it. I slept around 2 am.[nice sean!] I was watching Rated OH around 10 pm. [was that 10 pm?] And they featured for their "Incredible Edibles" segment was a Japanese reataurant. Red Kimono. So anyway, my mouth was practically drooling because of that segment. Yum Yum Yum. So I'mma show y'all why I love it so much. I want to eat there!♥ Ok. The scoop on Red Kimono. It is not just your typical Japanese restaurant with the usual sightings of tempura, sashimi, maki, sushi and the like. Yet it also focuses on modern Japaneses cuisine like crabstick rolls with wasabi mayo, salmon and cream cheese maki, and the California crunch maki, a variation of the usual California maki, wrapped in tempura batter, fried and served hot (not cold). I so want to eat there. wee.

THE MENU:



Man. I don't eat tofu often but that is just simply appetizing, don't you think? That's the Layered Spinach and Tofu with miso paste.



Now we're talking. That's Salmon and Cream Cheese Maki, baby. Now I want to try that. It looks so delish!



Now you're really at it. This is the California Crunch Maki. I loooovvveee this. It looks pretty and I'm sure it tastes scrumptious too. They added a twist to our favorite maki. Yummm.

This is just about where I bid goodbye. But I'd like to thank this. This is where I got my pics and info. Plus I'd like to thank this. This showed me the prices. Which is not far away from Kimpura. So I'll be going there! Expect me. Muahaha.

Anyway, the doll is apparating now.[officially, I'm a Potterhead. Oh, my bad. I was a Potterhead since Grade 3. lol.]

the sisterhood of the traveling pants.

I loved the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. The book. I bought it last time. National had a sale, so I went wild. But not as wild as I was for Powerbooks. It was so cool. I bought 3 books. Lol. Grr. I went shopping again. haha.

The Sisterhood. It starts in one summer when Bridget, Carmen, Lena and Tibby. They all spend a summer apart from each other. They discovered the Pants had some kind of magic. lol. It was so cool. haha. Anyway, here are some quotes I got from it. lalala.

***Not all who wander are lost.--J.R.R Tolkien
***Luck never gives, it only lends.--Chinese Proverb
***Rule # 1. The customer is always right. Rule # 2. If the customer is wrong, refer to rule # 1. [lol. haha. ]

that's all. lalala.

breakups.

I hate break-ups. Don't you? It's sad and heartbreaking and such a pain in the ass. First of all, you start with the crying. "Why?" is mostly asked. Then you reminisce about your good times. Then you'll start hating him. Right?

Breakups are sad. But I guess it's just God's way of saying, HE found someone better for you.

i'm tired.

I am tired. Wa. I just dropped by this blog and Imma start studying again. I'm almost finished with SS and I am starting on English. So I won't be here often. But please do understand my dear bloggie. I'm über kaduber busy. wa. and nervous.

i'll miss you. muahx. :]]

bagyong EGAY and operations.

It was so devastating to watch the news. I mean, seeing those people suffer in evacuation centers because their homes are flooded. Man, I'm so mean. Here I am, rejoicing that classes have been suspende for 2 days while people are in evacuation centers all cooped up. I was finally rejoicing because periodical tests were suspended and then I watched it. Wah. Conscience. I should be thankful right now because our house is far from floods. I should be.
Thank you, thank you that my parents found a cool place to live and at the same time safe from floods.

OPERATIONS
My dad's having an operation tomorrow. Man, I'm über scared for him. Wa. It's not major or anything. In fact, I'll even go to the dentist while he's at Asian. I'm über scared na. wa. Good luck to my dad.

Btw, I'm so crazyyyyy about calamansi juice.

Someone Like You-theme song for the Dust Factory

lalala-loved this.
here goes.

"SOMEONE LIKE YOU"
Written by Luis Bacalov & Anna Karin Klocker
Lyrics by Eric Small and Anna Karin Klocker
Performed by Hayden Panettiere and Watt White

I've waited so long
For a boy like you
To make things perfect
Fantazilating and true

I've waited, too
For someone like you
To make things perfect
Dancing and sharing and dreaming we do

Both of us searching
And racing through space
On an endless afternoon
I wish I could find the mysterious man in the moon
You hopeful smile gives me courage to see
What our love is made of
Making things perfect

I need a boy like you
(I need a girl like you)
I need a boy like you
(I need a girl like you)

I've waited so long
(I've waited so long)
For a boy like you
(For a girl like you)
To make things perfect
Sharing my secrets with you

I've waited, too
(I've waited, too)
Your eyes so true
(Your eyes so true)
Keeping my secrets
Giving me treasures and a sense of our love

Both of us searching
And racing through space
On an endless afternoon
I wish I could find the mysterious man in the moon
You hopeful smile gives me courage to see
What our love is made of
Making things perfect

I need a boy like you
(I need a girl like you)
I need a boy like you
(I need a girl like you)

The Dust Factory.

I am so addicted to this film. I watched it awhile ago on Star Movies and I thought it was über boring but IT SO WASN'T. I loved it. It starred Ryan Kelley as Ryan Flynn and Hayden Panettierre as Melanie. So here goes the synopsis:

SYNOPSIS
"The Dust Factory" is an adventure about the love and friendship between two teenagers who help each other through a difficult time in their lives.

Ryan Flynn (Ryan Kelley) is a wondrous young boy who hasn't spoken since witnessing his father's death at the age of nine. Even though his world is silent, Ryan, now thirteen, has formed a unique bond with his best friend Rocky (Michael Angarano), his mom Angie (Kim Myers) and his step-father Lionel (Peter Horton). They all respect the world he lives in, never treat him as though he's different, and encourage him to find the things in his life that he enjoys.

It seemed like any other summer day. Ryan and Rocky have taken off for a day of fishing at the lake nearby. With Ryan on in-line skates and Rocky on his bike, they race to their favorite fishing spot. The shortcut to the lake is over an old rickety bridge that Rocky is always hesitant to take. Ryan, on the other hand, races across. Tragically, the rotted wood gives way, and Ryan falls into the water below. Underwater, Ryan has been knocked unconscious and is magically transported to a fantasy realm known as The Dust Factory. A place Ryan will soon find mirrors his fear of mortality.

As Ryan swims to shore, Rocky is nowhere to be found. He rushes home to find the house he grew up in quiet, his mom absent, and his grandfather sitting quietly in his bedroom. They speak, which surprises both of them. Grandpa Randolph (Armin Mueller-Stahl) has been suffering from Alzheimer's and hasn't spoken a word in years. This sparks curiosity in Ryan. Where is he? Is he dead? The young boy who hasn't said a word in years is now having a conversation with the grandfather he hardly knows and thought he had lost forever.

What follows for Ryan is a journey of courage, and it is built on dreams.
In this strange yet familiar world, Ryan meets Melanie (Hayden Panettiere), a precocious young beauty, who steals his heart. Together they embark on an adventure where they confront their fears and develop a friendship built on trust and love.

Melanie explains this enchanted new world to Ryan and introduces him to The Dust Factory: A big top where attempting a triple flip from the trapeze can send him back to the life he left behind--a life of uncertainty and fear. Ryan finds himself caught between "taking the leap" and staying in The Dust Factory with its endless days and the comfort of an unchanging landscape.

For awhile, The Dust Factory seems to be the perfect fit. Melanie and Ryan teach one another to dance and laugh again, both finding a renewed joy in life. Ryan also spends time with his grandfather, who imparts his wisdom and knowledge to help Ryan make the right decisions for his own young life. Ryan, Melanie, and Grandpa all have different experiences to share with one another, and they are all in a place, somewhere between heaven and earth, with a very important decision to make. Ultimately, they all need to face the challenge of finding their way home.

THE QUOTES/LINES I LOVED

Ryan Flynn: When I die, I don't want it to hurt.
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Grandpa Randolph: Once upon a time there were three men who decided to climb the tallest mountain in their country.
Ryan Flynn: Which mountain?
Grandpa Randolph: The tallest - that's the point. These fellows knew if they succeeded, they would be showered with wealth and power by the king.
Ryan Flynn: For climbing a mountain?
Grandpa Randolph: This happened a long time ago, when climbing a mountain wasn't a weekend sport. They even referred to the mission as a "quest for paradise."
Ryan Flynn: This is an honest to goodness fable, huh?
Grandpa Randolph: You'll see. Now, the king had a beautiful daughter, and he promised her hand to the bravest of the men.
Ryan Flynn: So even if the guy was an ugly toad with fart's breath, she'd have to marry him.
Grandpa Randolph: Yes, yes. Halfway up the mountain, one of the men turned to the guide and said he couldn't justify the strain of another day's hiking just for the king's good blessings.
Ryan Flynn: Go on, Grandpa.
Grandpa Randolph: Go on, go on, go on. Next morning, the second man decided to climb was foolish. Even if the king were offering pails of gold, he figured it wouldn't be worth spending from his deathbed. So, off he went. The last man... The last man was chipper as a fox in a chicken coop! Already counting his good graces... Anticipating wealth, wench, happiness!
Ryan Flynn: The guy's stylin'.
Grandpa Randolph: Guys stylin', yes. Well, his excitement was short-lived as the guide outlined the final day's journey. Treacherous. This fellow just shook his head in disgust. I mean, for a spoiled child bride, it would take all the king's money to keep her happy, anyway. So, without even a proper fare-thee-well, he turned on his heel and left the young guide alone. And you know what the guy did then?
Ryan Flynn: Bailed?
Grandpa Randolph: He went for it.
Ryan Flynn: Cool.
Grandpa Randolph: Cool! Yes.
Ryan Flynn: So, then what?
Grandpa Randolph: After two more days, he reached the precipice and discovered a weathered bench looked out over the countryside... cupped his hands and shouted, "What paradise is this?" He was answered by a beautiful voice. "What paradise do you seek?"
Ryan Flynn: The Fair Footed Flekk?
Grandpa Randolph: Yes, she skipped through the clouds as is she were light as air itself. She explained how the men he'd started with were glory seekers expecting paradise, but disappointed. Disappointed at the price. The young man was touched and moved as he looked out over this tiny piece of the world seeing with a clarity he'd never known. And a word trembled from his lips... Paradise.
Ryan Flynn: And the Fair Footed Flekk?
Grandpa Randolph: Gone... into the clouds. Memory.
Ryan Flynn: Climbing the mountain was his reward?
Grandpa Randolph: Climbing was his paradise.
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Melanie Lewis: Make me a promise?
Ryan Flynn: Sure.
Melanie Lewis: If you decide you want the four seasons again...
Ryan Flynn: That mean jumping at the big top. Forget it. I'm never going home.
Melanie Lewis: But if you change your mind, promise me you'll tell me first?
Ryan Flynn: Why?
Melanie Lewis: I might consider going is all.
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Melanie Lewis: You know, I can still do everything better than you can. Faster - always will. Ryan Flynn: You can't always win. Melanie Lewis: I'll always beat *you*. Ryan Flynn: And I won't mind... I'll never forget you, Mel. Melanie Lewis: ...you will. Ryan Flynn: No, I won't. See ya later. Melanie Lewis: Not later. Just see you.
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Grandpa Randolph: Dust is a funny thing. It's everywhere all at once, like a teeny, tiny snowstorm, in every ray of light. Even the moon is just a big dust ball. But you know, it's all in the way you look at it. Not this way or that way, not forways or backways. Just believe before you look. The man in the moon has a magic all his own.