Sunday, August 31

Ode to Durian. :)

With the rainy weather & the red wine churning in my stomach, I will write an ode to durian because it's the reason why I'm having this terrible headache.

Oh durian!
You smell so heavenly
as heavenly as
a land fill in May

Oh durian!
You are the reason
why I am crinkling my nose
in disgust

Oh durian!
You being stuck in that container
Makes me weep inside
Because of joy

Ech. I hate durian. Its smell is all over the house. Plus, one time, my mom picked me up from school and she burped and hello! We meet again, durian. I seriously want to puke right now.

Let's explore the DURIAN even further. JOY.

According to Wikipedia, the durian(IPA: [ˈd(j)ʊriən, -ɑn])[1] is the fruit of trees from the genus Durio belonging to the Malvaceae, a large family which includes hibiscus, okra, cotton, mallows, and linden trees. Widely known and revered in Southeast Asia as the "King of Fruits", the fruit is distinctive for its large size, unique odour, and formidable thorn-covered husk.( How unique indeed.)

Here's a Philippine Folk Tale on how there came to be durian. I'm so grateful, Barom-Mai.

There was an old and ugly king named Barom-Mai who lived in a place called Calinan. Calinan is in Mindanao (not in the Visayas region). This kind lived hundreds of years ago. He was very powerful, except in winning the love of his young bride, Madayaw-Bayho (the daughter of Tageb, the king of the pirates).

Barom-Mai asked his advisors for help to win the love of his bride. Matigam was the wisest of the advisors. Matigam told the king "There is a hermit named Impit Purok. He lives in a cave in Mt. Apo. He can help you."

Barom-Mai went to see the hermit. The hermit asked the king for three things: He wanted an egg of the black tabon bird. He also wanted twelve ladles of fresh milk from a pure white carabao. And finally, he wanted nectar from the flower of the tree-of-make-believe.

Barom-Mai asked the hermit "Why do you need these things?"

The hermit explained: "I will use the egg to soften the young bride's heart. I will use the milk to make her kind. And the nectar, it will make her see you as a young and handsome king."

Barom-Mai goes to find the items for the hermit. For the egg, he gets the help of Pawikan, the king of sea turtles. The next morning at breakfast the king's cook helps him find the milk of a white carabao. And the nymph of the air, Hangin-Bai, leads him to her sister, a wood nymph, with the magic flower in her hair.

Barom-Mai brings the three items to the hermit. Impit Purok asks the king to prepare a big feast after he wins his young bride, and to invite Impit Purok as the king's guest of honor.

The hermit then goes to work mixing the three ingredients. After they are mixed, he tells Barom-Mai to plant the mixture in his royal garden. The next day, a tree grew. The tree had a sweet smell, and it's fruit tasted good. When Madayaw-Bayho was given the fruit of this tree, she fell in love with the king Barom-Mai.

The king is very happy that he has his bride. He has a big feast for all of his closest friends. But he forgets his promise to the hermit Impit Purok. He forgets to invite the hermit.

In retaliation, Imput Purok cats a curse upon the fruit: The sweet smell is replaced with a horrible odor, while the smooth skin of the fruit is covered with very sharp and dangerous thorns. Ths is how the durian smells and looks to this day.

Wow. I'd like to extend my gratitude to stupid Barom-Mai and the hermit, the ones who made it possible for me to smell the UNIQUE ODOR my nose is currently ehem, enjoying.

Credits: Wikipedia, :)

photo mosaic.


* Type your answer to the questions into a Flickr search
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1. What is your first name?
Janine. :)

2. What is your favorite food?

3. What high school did you go to?
Colegio San Agustin Biñan

4. What is your favorite color?
Pink & Black. Yey.

5. Who is your celebrity crush?
David Cook.

6. What is your favorite drink?
Iced Tea

7. What is your dream vacation?

8. What is your favorite dessert?
Sundae. :)

9. What do you want to do when you grow up?

10. Who/what do you love most in life?
GOD. :) and Family

11. Choose one word that describes you?

12. What is your Flickr name?

1. Sweet Janine, 2. 14th August 2007 / Day 226, 3. Ants, 4. i feel like molly ringwald, 5. Last Night's Sunset, 6. first day of summer, 7. (untitled), 8. Yummies in the evening sun, 9. IMG_9320, 10. Believe in the Spring!, 11. IMG_8118, 12. ~ '57 Chevies, Budweiser, Lucky Strikes, Bob Dylan & Buddy Holly (A Love for Real) (Not Fade Away)

Thanks Simone!

Saturday, August 30

yadda yadda.

I complain too much.

And now I'm complaining about the things peoplea certain person said about what happened last Friday. I hope you won't get mad but this is my blog and your entry pissed me off so I'm writing my complaint in my blog.

Try walking around, telling people to stay in their rooms because you were ordered to do so. And instead of you complaining, it's them. I don't give a damn if you wanted to go out or not, because believe it or not, we didn't want to make bantay sarado. Uh, hello? Sinong may gusto e Intrams?

the championship game wouldn't be possible if it weren't for the joined efforts of the AYC, Basketball Team and the CAT.

Super nakakapiss off na kailangan pa ivoice out and parang pissed off na pissed off e. Sana matamaan ka. Kala mo kung sinong magaling e.

4th year, syempre hindi kayo yun. :) hahaha. Ibang year. :)

Thursday, August 28

blogging. :)

"It's different to have someone care about you so much that sometimes, it hurts. I want someone to finally hold my hand, hug me when I feel scared and take care of me when I'm sick."

This is why I love blogging. I blog about idiotic things.
That was September 2007 when everyone thought I was okay but really wasn't. I get to say funny things in my blog without anyone stopping me. It makes me laugh just looking at my previous entries. There were entries for anger, entries for nonsense and entries for plain BLAAAAH. I've been blogging since second year, but my current blog started last May. I've enjoyed blogging ever since.

So let me start this entry by saying,

I'm serious. So here I am, opening the Friendster page and lo and behold! MOST POPULAR MEMBERS. Wow. Guess what they're wearing? Almost nothing. If it's not a brassiere, it's a bikini top that shows off cleavage! Makes me laugh. First of all, if you want to post something that's UHH like that, make sure you have at leaaast something, for Pete's sake. Plus, are you seriously waiting for the comments of the perverts on how you looked sexxxay in your primary pic? Well, if that's the case, you people sicken me. Girls waiting for some pervert's comment even if she doesn't know him.

Seems to me that you even like getting exploited and treated like an animal. Okaaay, that was harsh, but I can't help saying this. "IS THERE A NEED FOR YOU TO DO THAT?"
Go on posting those pictures and I swear you'll end up PREGNANT.

I am so not kidding.
Hello DURIAN. I wish you never lived. You sicken me and I want to throw up now because of your indescribable odor. I wish the smell would go away and I can type with scrunching or covering my nose. :(

Leron Leron Sinta

Saw this entry at Inday's website. HAHAHAHA.

Nagpunta sa probinsya ang pamilya Montemayor para sa dalawang araw na bakasyon. Kasama nila si Inday at inutusan siyang kumuha ng papaya mula sa puno para ihalo sa tinolang iluluto ni Mrs. Montemayor.

Mrs. Montemayor: Inday, ipitas mo nga ako ng papaya para matapos na itong tinola ko.

Inday: Sure. But first I have to do my ritual.

Misis: Anung ritwal? Kelan ka pa nasapi sa kulto?

Inday: Cult? Oh my gosh! I mean ritual as a habit. It is my habit to sing a very much celebrated Filipino folk song before I harvest the papaya.

Misis: Aba. Teka, kukunin ko muna yung recorder ko para marecord ang pagta-Tagalog mo.

Hindi pa nakakapagsalita si Inday nang kinuha ni Misis ang recorder. Pagbalik ay pinakanta na kaagad ni Misis si Inday.

Inday: Leron, Leron my love, climbs a papaya tree. With him a basket new to hold the fruit for me. But when he reached the top a branch broke off in haste. ‘Twas such an evil luck, The lost one please replace.

Dumugo ang ilong ni Misis nang inabot ni Inday ang…

Inday: Here’s the tree melon.

Misis: (hinimatay)

Ipagdiwang ang BUWAN NG WIKA.


Monday, August 25


According to Wikipedia, chivalry is defined as courteous behavior. And recently, I heard on the radio that nowadays, chivalry isn't that well practiced anymore. My reaction? DUH! As if that's not happening and that you didn't anticipate it.. With the rapidly changing world today, there's no wonder chivalry isn't present anymore. Men now think that we're equals, which is what we wanted in the first place right? Think of it this way girls, our ancestors asked for the equality. We asked for the lifting of the discrimination. We asked that we should not be referred to as the weaker sex. And now, we're asking a guy to open the door for us?

Girls are so crazy if they still think that guys would do that. Seriously, if I had to do what guys do, I would go do it. This isn't about me being feminist or anything. It's just that we asked for it. So there has to be some advantages and disadvantages in that course of action.

So if that guy decides to open the door for you, tell him, "Why bother?"


I'm posting this blog entry now since I can't post tomorrow. I'm expecting a birthday bash, Roan! So let me be the first to post this online greeting.


Wow. Tiring huh? Anyway, I'm posting this because you are my very best friend and tomorrow is your special day! You're getting older! HAHAHAHA.Compared to me, I was born in 1994. Yeah, totoo yun! HAHAHAHA Anyway, I know this is kinda cheesy but thanks for being the best best friend a girl can have. After 3 years of friendship, we're still here. Thank you for seeing my worst and best facades. HAHAHA. Okay, that was overly cheesy. HAHAHA. But, I hope you get your wishes this year, whatever they are. :)

Happy happy birthday again! Oh, and I have a gift for you. I haven't forgotten. I just hope you like it. HAHAHA.

Love youuu, Bru! :)
♥ Bru

Sunday, August 24

my 200th post. :)

I am oh-so proud that after a year and a half, I have 200 posts already! Yey me. I never thought I'd come this far because I don't really get to update much ever since the school year started. But, I did try though. So now, my goal will be to make it to my 500th post within May of next year. It'll be my blog's second anniversary.

So my 200th post is going to be all about CSI LAS VEGAS!

I picked this special topic to be my 200th post for one reason: I AM IN LOVE WITH IT.

Call me crazy, but I just love the show. I could spend hours watching than doing anything else. And all the scientific stuff and the solving mysteries stuff really amazes me. I watched an episode the other day,(Season5, if I'm not mistaken) the opening of the episode was this girl who was being chased and she was in her underwear. It was so cool and so they tried to solve the case and it turns out the suspect had chimera! Chimera is a disease where you have 2 DNAs. It was so cool. I never would have expected it. Watching CSI makes me aware that there are crimes that occur in our world. After all, according to Darwin's Natural Selection, Survival of the Fittest.

CSI Las Vegas makes me think and makes me enjoy at the same time. It has drama, fun and laughter. I'm gonna confess now. I don't like other CSIs like Miami or New York. They're just boring. They don't have interesting cases which you can cry on or even be amused.



So cool, intense. Hot. Intelligent.

Second: Greg Sanders(Eric Szmanda)

He is so cute. HAHAHA

Third: Nick Stokes(George Eads)

HOT. Hello muscles. HAHAHAA

Let's not forget William Petersen who stars as Gil Grissom. I swear he has the most beautiful eyes in the world, next to Warrick Brown of course.

Need I say more about CSI Las Vegas? Let's all watch those CSIs in action!


Ever since Mom and Dad's Annual Medical Checkup at the Asian Hospital, we've been eating healthy food. And it's not just any healthy food, imagine steamed vegetables. STEAMED! OMG!
However, since I've been craving much for Krispy Kreme, I consider it today my DIET FOOD.


YUMMMY. hahahahahaha

I am now satisfieeed. :) I learned something from Economics! HAHAHAHA

Friday, August 22

High School Life is the best.

Of course, I don't know if you'd agree with me, but after spending 3 years in high school and currently enjoying the last one, I must say that I am in LOVE with the high school life. Friends are close enough and they're always up for anything. Just like our gala last Thursday in Breeks Coffee Shop. Egg Carton also went to the studio! Yey. First time ulit. Anyway, enjoy the pictures. They're from Pat.
Attendance: Pat, Andrew, Roan, Raechell, Nathalie, Arielle, RJ, Angelene and yours truly. :)

BREEKS! Seductive pose.

I love EGG CARTON & Friends. :)

VOCALS: Arielle & Me

Monday, August 18

Life is shorrt. :(

Yesterday, my mom received a text that our carpenter/electrician, Kuya Danny, was in the hospital because he fell from something at work. He was in the ER and comatose. I was worried because comatose na kaya. So my parents were planning to visit and give some financial aid to his family today. Sadly, my mom said that he died na. I cried a bit and I was shocked because he was important. Hindi lang dahil carpenter/electrician namin siya, part of the family siya. Lagi siyang nandyan at laging kakwentuhan. I'm just so sad.

Wherever you are Kuya Danny, I hope you are in a better place. We'll pray for you.

Sunday, August 17


That's pure bs. HAHAHAHA

I hate people like THEM. haha

Saturday, August 16

female survey

1. What color is your bra?
- white.
2. Do you ever lie about your age?
-nah, haha. I'm still young.
3. Do you prefer "sensitive boys" or "tough guys"?
- ooh. I prefer both OR NOT. haha. just guys. HAHA.
4. Do you prefer blond or dark haired guys?
- Dark haired. They're so much haaay.
5. Are you currently single?
6. How many things in your past do you regret?
- Wala naman.
8. Do you have a best friend?
- yea
9. What do you want to be when you grow up?
- successful person whateveeer
10. Have you ever kissed two people in one night?
- NO. ew
11. Where do you shop to buy most of your clothes?
- hmmm. It kinda depends.
12. Who was the last person you hugged?
- e di bestfren ko.
13. Have you ever had your heart broken?
- HAHAHAHAHA. whatta question
14. Have you ever thought about?
15. Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't have them?
17. If you could change anything about your past, what would you change?
- Nothing. Why would I? I wouldn't learn if it wasn't for that.
18. Do you like your life?
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19. Do you shop at Hollister?
- Nah
20. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
- I don't think so.
21. Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
- yeaaa. HAHA. sakit nga e. HAHAHAHAHA. may wound pa. hahahaha.
22. Did you forgive them?
- yeah
23. Who is your first best friend?
- hmm. lesley diaz. yiiieee.
24. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
- girls of course
25. How long have you had myspace?
- wala nga e
26. Have you ever skipped school?
- nope.
27. Has anyone ever cheated on you?
- hmm. OO. joke
28. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
- a few times
30. What is one of your biggest fears?
- losing my family
31. Have you ever skipped class?
32. Has anyone close to you ever passed away?
33. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
- YES,
34. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
- no.
35. Do you believe in the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater"?
- nah. haha.
36. Are you a player?
- yea. ay mali NO pala.
37. What kind of cell phone do you have?
- the cheap one. HAHA. N6020
38. What is your screen name?
- belle. haha.
39. So far, do you like this survey?
- okay lang
40. Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out you were right?
41. Do you ever wish you were famous?
- NAAAH. I already am. HAHA.
42. Do you ever wish you were a man?
- NO. eew. all that testosterone. haha
43. Do you think any men will open this just because it's labeled "The Female Survey"?
- I dunno.


This picture makes me laugh. HAHA. I absolutely despise this picture of Robert Pattinson. OMG. He doesn't look like a PERFECT VAMPIRE. He just looks so GAY. Why did they have to make this the cover?

Stewart on the other hand, is astonishing here. She looks pretty, for once. HAHA. Her tan is beautiful and PATTINSON IS SO GAY HERE.

Wish they posted a more decent picture. HAHAHA.

P.S. I noticed what he was wearing and that's so gay. HAHAHAHA. Just posted my thoughts on this unacceptable cover except for Bella of course.

Thursday, August 14

last survey before i sleep.

School Part 1: Q&A
What time do you get up in the morning?
I wake up at 5 AM.

Do you eat breakfast?
Yeah. Most of the time. My yaya prepares it e.

What time do you leave for school?
Hmm. It depends. Around 6-6:30 AM

How do you get to school?
Mom's car

What time is it when you reach school?
Depends. Most of the time is 6.40 something

What do you do when you first get to school?
Climb the stairs to my classroom.

What time do classes start?
7:00. HAHA.

How many classes do you have a day?
A LOT. 10 classes.

Do you take any honors/GT/AP courses?
I dunno. HAHA.

Who’s your favorite teacher and what does (s)he teach?
Hmm. Wala na kong fave teacher. HAHA.

Who’s your least favorite teacher and what does (s)he teach?
They're all despicable. KIDDING.

How long is each class?
Depends on the subject. Other classes have an hour and 20 mins. Others have only 40 mins.

When does school get out?
4:30 pm

Do you stay after often?
Most of the time. Extra-curriculars.

How do you get home?
My mom picks me up.

Do you do your homework?
Yeah, but if I forget I copy. HAHA

School Part 2: Bolding
I wear a uniform to school
I participate in school sports
I skip class all the time (once in a while nalang)
I’ve stolen food from the cafeteria
I cover the bathrooms in graffiti
I’ve gone into the bathroom of the opposite sex just for giggles
I steal answer sheets from my teachers and use them to cheat on tests
I always bring lunch
I’m in middle school
I’ve been suspended or expelled
I’ve failed a grade
I’ve been seriously injured in a gym class
I always get lost in my school
I always talk to the school counselors
Some of my teachers are like friends
I hate all my teachers
School makes me really stressed out
I generally have the some of the highest grades in my classes
I have some sort of music class
I participate in extracurricular activities
I sleep through the majority of my classes
My grades need work (my averages could be better)
I spell “lyke dis” even in school
I’ve never taken a language course in school

Tuesday, August 12

Beat It - Fall Out Boy


Twilight Survey. :)

1. What do you like best about Twilight?
- What I like best is that it has a sense of thrill & suspense. You never know what's gonna happen next.

2. Team Edward, Team Jacob, or Team Switzerland?
- Team EDWARD, naturally. He's absolutely adorable.

3. If you could chose only one, which one would you be, a vampire or a werewolf?
- I'd like to be a VAMPIRE. I know I'll be more perfect than perfect. HAHAHA.

4. Did you cry at any point in the books?
- Yeah. I cried in New Moon when Edward left her. And I cried in Breaking Dawn. I felt the pain that Bella was feeling.

5. Favorite book so far?
-Twilight, of course. Sure New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn have brilliant plots, it's just that the beginning is always the best. :)

6. Do you smile every time you see a silver Volvo, a giant jeep, a red convertible, a yellow Porsche, a black Mercedes, a red Rabbit, or a red Chevy truck?
- Yep. I just smile. HAHA. :)

7. Do you think Bella will be turned into a vamp in Breaking Dawn?
- Yeah, I read it. Haha. I loved the way she was turned into a vampire.

8. If so, what do you think her special power will be?
- My inference was that it'll have to be something like a protector of some kind. Remember the times when Edward tried to read her mind and was unsuccessful? SO there. And yeah, I was so correct.

9. Who do you think the main villain will be in the next book?
- I really thought it would be Jacob. HAHA.

10. Will Edward and Bella actually get married?
- Yeah. I was sure of that even before I started reading.

11. Will Bella and Rosalie ever be friends?
- Yeah, I think so. It'll take time though.

12. Thoughts about Bella at the end of Eclipse.
- Bella is selfish. But yeah, we can't really help it when we love.

13. Thoughts about Edward at the end of Eclipse.
- You're still soooo hot. HAHA.

14. Thoughts about Jacob at the end of Eclipse.
- Hmm, Jacob is fine. I like him.

15. Perfect ending to Bella’s story?
- Hmm, I'm still thinking. I think it'd be that they love each other till eternity.

16. Actual ending (be realistic and honest!)?
- Actual ending? That there'd still be problems to be encountered and that whatever happens, they'll still be together.

17. Favorite character?

18. Why?
- He's PERFECT. Old fashioned, hot, he makes my heart beat fast.

19. Describe Edward in ONE word:

20. Describe Bella in ONE word:

21. Describe Jacob in ONE word:

22. Describe Alice in ONE word:

23. Describe Jasper in ONE word:

24. Describe Emmet in ONE word:

25. Describe Rosalie in ONE word:

26. Describe Carlisle in ONE word:

27. Describe Esme in ONE word:

28. Describe Twilight in ONE word:

29. Describe New Moon in ONE word:

30. Describe Eclipse in ONE word:

31. Favorite scene in Twilight (book)?
- The meadow scene. :) Hallelujah!

32. Favorite scene in New Moon ?
-Hmm. The scenes when she was hearing the voice of Edward.

33. Favorite scene in Eclipse?
- When Edward proposed to Bella. :)

34. Favorite quote (s)?
- too many to mention. Here are some:
*Could you believe that, despite everything I've put you through, I love you too?
*Look after my heart, I've left it with you.
And when he says, LOVE. haha.


36. Thoughts about the TWILIGHT (movie) cast:
- They're okay.

37. Favorite cast member?
-Ashley Greene. (Alice) She looks so much like Alice. haha.

Monday, August 11

Please Don't(song for MAPEH)

Lyrics by Nathalie Blay and Janine del Rosario
Guitars-Angelene Paradero
Drums-Roan Buenaventura
Organ-Krizelle Cruz
Chimes-Andrew Redimano
Thanks to Shine by Collective Soul

Can't post the song. Lyrics na lang.


I. Make me stop
Make me fall
Tell me what this is, this feeling I've got
Tell me, oooh tell me

Oooh, whoever let your light shine down
Oooh, don't you ever let me drown
Oooh, please don't let me see that frown

II. Run to me
Hide my heart
Keep it safe and keep me warm
Tonight, just for this night

Repeat chorus

.....Here we go

Sunday, August 10

Saturday, August 9

you got me all wrong.

One word to sum up today. The day was typical. I woke up at 5.30 am, showered, dressed and went to school. At kamusta naman ang 7 am sharp na announcement ko? When I got there, it was already 7. I thought I was late and everything. Turns out Kyle just got there and he was the EARLY BIRD. Seriously, Filipino time? So anyway, we waited until Sean and Kat turned up. And I was wondering why Roan was late.So, I called her up and surprise! Ginawa pa niya akong alarm clock. Anyway, when she FINALLY arrived(Yes Roan, I'm rubbing it in, KIDDING!), we were on our way to Ateneo. We got dropped off at Kostka Hall, saw the LINE and nawala ang excitement. It was super long and they needed envelopes pa. So we went to the bookstore which was so pretty.*drools* We passed our envelopes and waited. Roan texted Ate Aileen and she joined us. Kwento dito, kwento doon. I missed her too.

Next stop. De La Salle. We got dropped off at the main gate. And it turns out that the Office of Admissions is kinda far pa. We had to walk in the blazing heat of the sun. But thanks to Kyle and Sean who brought umbrellas, we had shade! Hurrah! However, Kat and I got stuck outside while Roan and Zel passed their forms and Sean and Kyle got theirs. The ugly guard wouldn't let us in. So we goofed around. Years,este moments later, they got out and I was running late for my dentist appointment. We ZOOMED to Makati and I told them to eat ahead while I went to the dentist. I got my elastics changed and received good news. My braces are coming off this October! Yoohoo. But, I sure am gonna miss my braces. *frowns* Okay, back to the topic. I walked again to Glorietta, made a stop at Powerbooks(Gossip Girl book5) and when I got there, they finished eating. I decided not to eat anymore. So we wove around the stores of Glorietta, Roan and me scored identical bags at Artwork, Katreena bought a jacket at Cinderella and we ate at Dairy Queen. Fun, fun, fun!

It was super funny when we were all in our car na. Roan, Kyle and Katreena were tired na. They fell asleep and super cute tingnan! Parang mga bata batuta. They were finally dropped off at Pacita and we said our goodbyes.

Last stop. San Pedro Town Center. We bought DVDS. I bought Mamma Mia, which I watched in theatres with Ma dear and My Sassy Girl(English version).

I guess that sums up my daaay. It was really tiring. Fun, though. Thanks again Krizelle, Sean, Kyle, Roan and Katreena for MAKING THIS DAY MEMORABLE. ♥

P.S. Thanks to Kuya Ton for the Batman spoof & the OTH quotes link.♥

A must-read.

Credits: Ate Diana

Tingin ng mga bobong kapitbahay ko puta daw ako. Nagpapagamit, binabayaran. Sabi nila ako daw ang pinakamaganda at pinakasikat sa aming lugar noon. Ang bango-bango ko daw, sariwa at makinis. Di ko nga alam kung sumpa ito, dahil dito nagkanda loko-loko ang kinabukasan ko. Halika, makinig ka muna sa kwento ko, yosi muna tayo.

Alam mo, maraming lumapit sa akin, nagkagusto, naakit. Ang hirap pag lahat sa iyo virgin eh. Tinanggap ko naman sila bilang tao, bakit kaya nila ako ginago? Masakit alalahanin, iniisip ko na lang na kasi di sila taga rito, siguro talagang ganoon. Tatlong hayok na foreigners ang namiyesta sa katawan ko, na-rape ako.

Sa tatlong beses akong nagahasa, ang pinakahuli ang di ko makakalimutan. Parang maski di ko ginusto ang mga nangyari, hinahanap-hanap ko siya. Tinulungan nya kasi akong makalimutan yung mga sadistang Espanyol at Hapon. Kasi, ibang-iba talaga sya. Ibang klase siya mag-sorry, lalo pa at kinupkop niya ako at ang mga naging anak ko.

Parating ang dami naming regalo - may chocolates, spam, blue seal na yosi, ano ka! May datung pa! Nakakabaliw siya, alam kong ginagamit niya lang ako pero pagamit naman ako nang pagamit.

Sa kanya namin natutunan mag-inggles, di lang magsulat ha! Magbasa pa! Hanggang ngayon, sa tuwing mabigat ang problema ko, siya ang tinatakbuhan ko. Yun nga lang, lahat ng bagay may kapalit. Nung kinasama ko siya, guminhawa buhay namin. Sosyal na sosyal kami. Pero pakiramdam ko unti unti na akong nalolosyang.

Ewan ko nga ba, akala ko napapamahal na ako sa kanya. Akala ko tuloy-tuloy na kaligayahan namin, yun pala unti-unti niya akong pinapatay. Putang Ina! Sa dami ng lason na sinaksak niya sa katawan ko, malapit na akong malaspag.

Ang daming nagsabi na ang tanga tanga ko. Patalsikin ko na daw. Sa tulong ng mga anak ko, napalayas ko ang animal pero ang hirap magsimula. Masyado na kaming nasanay sa sarap ng buhay na naranasan namin sa kanya. Lubog na lubog pa kami sa utang, kulang ata pati kaluluwa namin para ibayad sa mga inutang namin.

Sinikap naming lahat maging maganda ang buhay namin. Ayun, mga nasa Japan, Hong Kong, Saudi ang mga anak ko. Yung iba nag-US at Europe. Yung iba ayaw umalis sa akin. Halos lahat, wala naman silbi, masaya daw sa piling ko, maski amoy usok ako.

Sa dami ng mga anak ko na nagsisikap na tulungan ang kalagayan namin, marami rin sa mga anak ko na andito ang namamantala sa kabuhayan at kayamanan na itinatabi ko para sa kinabukasan naming lahat. Halos mahubaran na ako sa sobrang kasakiman ng aking mga anak. Ibinigay ko na ang lahat sa kanila, pero ninanakawan pa rin nila ako. Kaya dumating ang panahon na di na kami halos makaahon sa hirap ng buhay. Napakahirap dahil nasanay na kami sa ginhawa at sarap.

Ang di ko inaakala ay mismong mga anak ko, ang tuluyang sisira sa akin. Napakasakit tanggapin na malinlang. Akala ko ay makakakita ako ng magiging kasama sa buhay sa mga ahas na ipinakilala ng mga anak ko Hindi pala. Ang tanga ko talaga. Binugaw ako ng sarili kong mga anak kapalit ng kwarta at pansamantalang ginhawa na nais nilang matamasa.

Wala na akong nagawa dahil sa sobrang pagmamahal ko sa aking mga anak. Wala akong ibang yaman kundi ganda ko. Pinagamit ko na lang ng pinagamit ang sarili ko, basta maging maginhawa lang ang mga anak ko.

Usap-usapan ako ng mga kapitbahay ko. May nanghihinayang, namumuhi at naaawa. Puta na kasi ang isang magandang tulad ko.

Alam mo, gusto ko na sanang tumigil sa pagpuputa kaso ang laki talaga ng letseng utang ko eh. Palaki pa ng palaki. Kulang na kulang. Paano na lang ang mga anak ko naiwan sa aking puder? Baka di na ako balikan o bisitahin ng mga nag-abroad kong mga anak. Hindi na importante kung laspagin man ang ganda ko, madama ko lang ang pagmamahal ng mga anak ko. Malaman nila na gagawin ko ang lahat para sa kanila.

Sa tuwing titingin ako sa salamin, alam ko maganda pa rin ako. Meron pa din ang bilib sa akin. Napapag usapan pa din. Sa tuwing nakikita ko ang mukha ko sa salamin, nakikita ko ang mga anak ko. Tutulo na lang ang mga luha ko ng di ko namamalayan. Ang gagaling nga ng mga anak ko, namamayagpag kahit saan sila pumunta. Mahusay sa kahit anong gawin. Tama man o mali. Proud ako sa kanila. Kaso sila, kabaligtaran ang nararamdaman para sa akin.

Sa dami ng mga anak ko, iilan lang ang may malasakit sa akin. May malasakit man, nahihilaw pa. Ni hindi nga yata ako kinikilalang ina. Ang dami ko ng pasakit na tiniis pero walang sasakit pa nung sarili kong mga anak ang nagbugaw sa akin. Kinapital ang laspag na ganda ko. Masyado silang nasanay sa sarap ng buhay. Minsan sa pagtingin ko sa salamin, ni hindi ko na nga kilala sarili ko.

Dadating na naman ang pasko, sana maalala naman ako ng mga anak ko. Isang buwan pa, magbabagong taon na. Natatakot ako sa taon na darating. Ngayon pa lang usap usapan na ang susunod na pagbubugaw ng ilan sa mga anak ko. Sana may magtanggol naman sa akin, ipaglaban naman nila ako. Gusto kong isigaw:


Sige, dumadrama na ako. Masisira na ang make up ko nito eh. Salamat ha, pinakinggan mo ako. Ay sorry, di ko nasabi pangalan ko.

Ako nga pala si PILIPINAS.

PLEASE REPOST OR LINK THIS ARTICLE. Kailangan po talagang mabasa at maintindihan nating lahat ang pinagdadaanan ng Inang Bayan and sana after reading this wag sanang manatili sa ating mga mata lamang ang ating nabasa, we have to converge and organize something like a forum or anything na pwede tayo makapag usap-usap and to formulate plan of actions. TAYO ANG MGA ANAK NI INANG BAYAN AT KAPAG WALA TAYONG GINAWA BAKA DI NATIN NA MAMALAYAN TAYO NA MISMO ANG BUMUBUGAW SA KANYA.
Hilarious. haha. Laughed like crazy. Haha.

Thursday, August 7

Breaking Daawwn.

Finished Breaking Dawn last night. I won't comment much except that for my opinion, Twilight is still better. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

:) I'll wait for you all to finish, and we'll discuss. For this time around, I'll join discussions na. Kasi it's the last book na e. Kaya hurry up. haha.

Tuesday, August 5


HURRAH! What a glorious day. I did a VB interface by myself sa photoshop. Wala lang. I was so excited. Haha. Kasi may kasama pang frustrations kanina at naiinis na ko kasi hindi ko siya magets. Ngayon gets ko na. Coca Cola. WEH. haha. Here's the copy.:


Weee. :) Yan na groupmates. haha.

Monday, August 4

Breaking Dawn

Oh yes. It is finally here. My own copy of Breaking Dawn in all its glory. As soon as I got home, I picked up the book and it fit perfectly like I was meant for it. All the waiting, anticipation and suffering paid off. I HAVE IT. I won't rest until I finish this. I PROMISE. Here's my pics of my new book. :)


CANYON WOODS last weekend--August2-3

Me & Nikka

Oh well. Yun na lang. Haha. :) Back to reading. :)

Sunday, August 3

third post for the day.

New layout for Blogger. :) Yipeeee. I searched endlessly in Blogskins and this turned out pretty well.


Pics of Rosetta: The highlights on the life of St. Rita

Miracle of the Vines

Angel Dance

Miracle of the Roses

Jameela Malicdem as St. Rita of Cascia

Curtain Call--Main Dancers(Ayun ako sa dulo)

Huge success.

Since this will be my third and last post for the day, i will seize the moment.

Andrew's phone. Trip ko lang ipost. Haha.

Ciao. :) Arriverderci. Au revoir.

Till next time.

survey. :)

Got this from: hereee.
I've seen:
garden state.
john tucker must die.
donnie darko.
freddy got fingered.
office space.
finding nemo.
life as a house.
superman returns.
shrek 2.
shrek the third.
legally blond.
legally blond 2.
chicken little.
talladega nights.
memoirs of a geisha.
the holiday.
a cinderella story.
hide and seek.
high school musical.
smart house.
blades of glory.
the lakehouse.
along came polly.
what a girl wants.
shallow hal.
shall we dance?
when harry met sally.
in the land of women.
beacuse i said so.
catch and release.
music and lyrics.
now and forever.
where the hearts is.
the notebook.
just like heaven.
13 going on 30.
a walk to remember.
you've got mail.
the devil wears prada.
love actually.
the sisterhood of the travelling pants.
meet the robinsons.
a lot like love.
raise your voice.
the prince and me.
the prince and me 2.
how to deal.
cheaper by the dozen.
yours, mine and ours.
confessions of a teenage drama queen.


Finished the UPCAT. Got stuck on Math. NO SURPRISE THERE. But surprisingly, I don't worry about the results anymore. THE AC GROUP OF SGV changed all that. Here's the story, after the UPCAT, my parents and I ate a hearty lunch at Pizza Hut and then went home to prepare for Canyon Woods. We had a reunion dinner with Dad's cluster way back in '82 when he started in SGV & Co. So old friends were there, kinakamusta kami. Tita Josine, who's an angel by the way, heard that I took the UPCAT and she said this to me,

I believe if it's for you, it'll be for you.

Powerful words that made sense. So I'm not worrying anymore. Que sera sera. Whatever will be will be.

P.S. There was a super gwapo guy kagabi sa dinner. HAHAHA. :) Wooooh,plerty! Este Party!

Friday, August 1

All things must come and go. :)

Finally. Rosetta's finished! The Dulaang Kruhay is proud that we did it! :) Grabe. Ang saya ng feeling namin na natapos na namin siya. Lahat ng dugo't pawis nilagay ng Kruhay doon. I'm soooo happyyy! Yey! Go Kruhay!

UPCAT. Tomorrow. 6.30 am. HAHAHAHA. Kung karapat dapat akong pumasa, papasa ako. Kung hindi, hindi.

After all, it's not the only school out there. :) Goodluck seniors!

St. Jude, pray for us.