Saturday, June 30
Today's the auditions for the Augustinian Idol which I said that I'm not going to since I haven't filled up the form and I have no full body and close up pics because I really don't want to join.
I wants to have a new haircut. Seriously. I'm searching for a hairstyle that would fit me and I want something that's different. UNIQUE.
We're going to the mall today and I am so picking out a new hairstyle. haha. I WANT TO. wahaha.
that's all for now.
Friday, June 29
1. There is no Prince Charming.I swear. There is no perfect guy.
2. There is no fairy Godmother.There'll be no wishes and dreams that'll come true using her.
The lies of Snow White:
1. There'll never be a prince who'll take you away on his shiny steed and live happily ever after.
I could enumerate all of them, but to sum it all up, THERE IS NO PERFECT GUY OR A PRINCE CHARMING OR A KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR.
They have flaws, too.
I AM HURT.
I am not in a good mood today as you have noticed. I mean, who would be? I hate this fcuking day and all the days last year. From the moment I met him in *******, to the moment that he announced his departure towards another country. He crushed my heart like hell. And now, I'm cussing like there's no end.
I admit that I am hurt. So hurt that if my heart were dry, it would bleed again just because of the pain. I don't think he knows I'm falling for him. He was just an illusion. The game of my mind. The picture of my heart. He's just HIM. I just can't explain. I know this hurts, I try not to cry because I never had a chance from the start did I? NOPE. I was a fool to believe he'd like me.
This is everything that I dreaded and now it's happening. I can't do anything about it because I'm stupid.
BUT MOST OF ALL, I AM HURT.
Anyway, back to the things that do matter. Today, we had the first club meeting. I went to Herald first and then to Biochem. I have three clubs at present. It's fun. Haha. When we were electing officers for the club officers, it was so hot in the science lab because there were a lot of people. Good and bad news are present here. No offense but I personally think that they should have given the higher positions to the 2nd year and the 3rd year students. I mean, 1st year? But that's none of my business now.
I am on Teentalk right now and I just noticed HE was online last Tuesday and he didn't even bother to answer my e-mail. I hate myself. Why did I think I had a chance? But now, I want to bury him. And to think, I was falling for him. I hate myself. And indeed as my Multiply stated,"paperheart.rip.tear.bleed." he's making my heart bleed. He ripped, tore and made it bleed. That's just how life is. And I am hurt now. I'm just not trying to show the pain.
YOU'RE KILLING ME SOFTLY.
Thursday, June 28
I'm now currently reading "The Rescue" by Nicholas Sparks again. Can't help it if his novels make me cry buckets of tears. If it was vacation time, I wouldn't put down that book. But since it's not and we have loads of projects coming up, I can just read it occasionally. Grr. I lent Arnold and Kathleen "The Guardian" and "Nights in Rodanthe". I think they'll love it. I love it. Haha. Roan will lend me "Prep", right? Haha.
One assignment in TLE is that fcuking resistor thingy. I swear. It's just a repeat of last year and it was better last year because it was in two's. But I finished it and the only thing I haven't finished is the excerpt from the novel,"Mga Ibong Mandaraggit". Which is fine. considering I'll be staying up late because I'm not really tired. I'm alive and I don't have signs of becoming lethargic now. Hardy har.
I am so not auditioning for the A.I. One registration form down the drain. Haha. I swear. It just doesn't feel right. Haha.
I loved Ate Krish's quote. "I'm not the girl next door. I'm the bitch down the street." That's so describes me. That's why we had codenames.[Rubio,Boan]
j9's:bitch down the street
boan's:slut clinging on the pole[yebah. haha.]
rubi's:trash down the garbage.[waha.]
I had so much fun. Anyway, gots to go. I have homework to be done.
By the way, I finished the Filipino thingy while my dad was doing something in the PC. yey.
Six Weird Things About Me:
1. I take pics in the bathroom.[parang 15 things toh ah.]
2. I love looking at my eyebrows and make them go up and down.
3. When I was young, I interviewed myself.[just in case I'll be a star. hah.]
4. I was called "Jackie Chan" when I was in Grade 3 because I loved punching people when they annoy me.
5. I used to have crushes on people shorter than me.[oiiii. dati pa yun.]
6. Most of all, I love going up to our roof just to eat.[hah. walang makakakita.]
Wednesday, June 27
We had a meeting for the Himnayon and it turns out it'll be regular. I'll be coming home late on Mondays and Wednesdays. So after the meeting, I was with Arnold and Kuya Makoy and Ate Krissy and Ate Ion. Wow. There was joke time and the like. haha.
JOKE ni Kuya Makoy:
Sino ang nagsabi ng:
Hindi lahat ng tooth ay maputi.
Sagot: BLUETOOTH![ngek.ngek. but in fairness, we laughed.]
JOKE ni Ate Krissy:
Bata: Wag poh. Natatakot na poh akoooo....
Ang lakas ata ng tawa namin dyan. HAHA. That's all.
Wahaha. I'm looking forward to Monday again. :]]
Tuesday, June 26
We got to the FX and we were with the girls from Simon[2nd year]. We arrived there and watched Fantastic Four. Ngekkk. Chris Evans is HOT, that's all. Then we took lots of pictures and that was our gala.
I loved that. Let's do it again!♥
Monday, June 25
Like in the novel, I wish I would have a guardian like Jim was.[her husband who died.]
Will I find my guardian?
So what happened awhile ago? Hmm. The usual. Since it was exam day, everyone was out reading their books, notebooks and reviewers. It's noisy too because we juniors are involved in group discussions. I got assigned to seat near the windows. My seatmate was Mikki.[OXFORD!♥] And so on.
The most boring part of the exam? After you finish answering and there's still time left. You don't know what to do because you aren't allowed to speak to anyone. So after that boring MAPEH and ENGLISH exams, I got out my ballpen and wrote at the back of the case of my colored pencils. I had nothing better to do.
After the exams, we got out a bit late and my classmates were asking where the hell we'll be taking our feet tomorrow after exams. Everybody agreed to the mall.[I think. Considering we were only 4]. But I am glad to say, my dear classmates that after a discussion with my mom, I CAN GO! But only up to 4. That's the curfew now since it's a schoolday. Grr. I am happy that she approved.
I'll be back to post the 15 things you never knew about me and my paperheart post.
Sunday, June 24
Yun lang naman. hardy har.
I am so bored right now. But you know,I'm supposed to be studying. Hardy har. I'm just boooooorrreeeedddd to death. Grr.
My parents and Anton went out to Festi. Even if it's Festi,they still went to the mall! HUHU. hmm...
I wonder what I'll do.
Anyway,I just dropped by and I'll be dropping by more often 'coz I dig this layout,BABY!♥
Can you be mine?belle.out.
Saturday, June 16
Thursday, June 14
This may seem ever so weird to people but he makes me HAPPY and I'm so at ease to talk to him or better term is,CHAT. I totally lose it when he puts up his display picture and I get lost in his eyes. Those small,chinky,brown eyes. The hair that makes him look like a Korean matinee idol. The smile that makes my insides melt. Every little part of him, every word he types, every SMS he texts, makes me like him a little more. HE is older than me by four years yet it seems like AGE is nothing but a number to me. Distance no longer anything but a couple of numerals combined to make a whole number. He's so hard to reach yet I find myself reaching out to him no matter how far, how wide or how long the journey might take.