Friday, October 31
Freakishly weird and confused. Feelings that have been going through my veins for quite some time now. Nobody knows, of course. Tell me reasons why I can't rest and why I keep thinking about this. I wasn't aware that it was happening and I already forgot the feeling, remember?
How is anybody supposed to know when it happens?
This is why I have to say goodbye, to do it faster so the pain doesn't sting so much. I know I have to speak those words but I am scared. I know at some point, the hurt of goodbye would erase my illusion of it being easy. Nothing scares me more than saying those words.
So I'm not saying it. I'll simply drift away.... leaving you nonexistent. I'll try to get on with life, believing it will be so much better without you. You won't even know I was gone, right? Just like all that has been happening. I've been stepped on, allowing you to have it all. My heart is in a cage and like a stray, it needs feeding but you always forget. I've decided to break free and go astray. Though it pains me not to have comfort and a home, it'll be better for us both. We've gone through a lot, we've laughed our laughs, and laughed our cries. I've told you everything but felt like you told me nothing. You will always have this special place in my heart. You will always be something for me. I may say I don't believe in you, but you know in my heart I do. No matter what they say, I always thought you and I remained best friends until the end. But I have to let go because it feels like I'm the only one holding on.
Slowly and painfully, I'll forget the friendship we've had. If I keep it, love will tear us apart.
Thursday, October 30
1) Type in “[your name] needs” in Google search:• Janine needs some meat on her bones.
(Uhm, no I don't. HAHA.)
2) Type in “[your name] looks like” in Google search:•Janine looks like the girl next door.
3) Type in “[your name] likes” in Google search:•Janine likes to socialize and will use any excuse to celebrate with friends.
(Disco Socials anyone?)
4 ) Type in “[your name] says” in Google search:•Janine says the biggest factor in her success is the unlimited opportunity that Unishippers provides.
5) Type in “[your name] wants” in Google search:•Janine wants so badly to help her little brother make a go-cart.
(That would be cool.)
6) Type in “[your name] does” in Google search:•Janine does not have many friends and mostly keeps to herself.
7) Type in “[your name] hates” Google search•Janine hates frogs.
(NO, I don't.)
8) Type in “[your name] goes”•Janine goes to Los Angeles to train with International Acting Coach Bernard Hiller.
(CLASS A.-elite. HAHAHA.)
9) Type in “[your name] loves” in Google search•Janine loves you.
(Of course I do.)
10) Type in”[your name] is” in Google search:
I'm not tagging anyone. You're free to grab this. :)
Monday, October 20
That's all I ever hear. Is there no other word than this? Sometimes when I hear people talking about it, I just want to make myself disappear. When they talk about this, they turn into giddy, funny looking people that I once was. Let's face it, we've been there before.
Sadly, I don't remember the feeling anymore. I remember the boy, but I don't remember the feeling anymore. I don't mean to be CYNICAL, but it'll all come down to that. We'll be left alone in the world with only God on our side.
Yes, everyone wants to feel this somehow. Even I do. But what's the point?
AYOKO NA. Kalokohan lang ang lahat.
Sunday, October 19
Sus. Kadrama. I'm finally saying goodbye to my braces. I was so excited before when I was gonna have it removed, but now. Gawd. I miss my braces. My teeth turned out fine. Haha. Anyway, I'm still gonna have retainers so my teeth don't move.
Awww. Gaaah. I miss my braces. Anyway, Imma study and look at my weird mouth now. HAHA. :)
Thursday, October 16
Can anybody help me?
ANYWAY, my CMLI trip is almost near and my DSSPC competition. Woooh. :(
so much for freaking updates. hahaha
I'll blog about something good next time.
Monday, October 13
Sunday, October 12
After the play, we went to the Podium to have dinner. We ate at Kimono Ken, and I have to admit for that expensive price, it wasn't as half as good as Teriyaki Boy and yes, I'm loyal. We finally ate dessert at the Dome, which I'm not new to. Chocolate Cake and Double Chocolate Iced Coffee are the perfect mix, I'll tell you.
Just some random thought: What'll happen to me when I become drunk? :) Hahaha.
Saturday, October 4
Sure, sure. I've heard them all before. Teenage girls are frequently saying those things. Bitchy much? Yeah, I know. But you know what? I'm tired of girls being proud to be called bitches. Come on! Can't you see that's not a compliment? Okay, you might say I am a hypocrite because I totally don't know what I'm talking about. Well, I do. And to say that I'm proud to be a bitch, that is so wrong. I may have that attitude most of the time, but never ever would I say that I was proud to be one. I'm not. Girls should n't be subjected to be proud to be called those things. It's not flattering.
Let's not discuss what brought this entry about. :)
HELLO iPod Nano 3rd Generation. You are finally mine.
So anyway, my parents and I bought this last October 1. My uncles and aunties all pitched to buy this for my birthday. So what I have is a 4 GB iPod which now has 160 songs, 3 videos, over 200 photos and 3 games. A BIG HUG TO EVERYONE WHO GAVE ME THIS AWESOME GIFT.
Rules: put your music player on shuffle, let the songs answer the questions.
1. What's my mood like right now?
Here is Gone-goo goo dolls
2. How's tomorrow going to be for me?
The Best Deceptions-Dashboard Confessional
3. What kind of person am I?
Hum Hallelujah-Fall Out Boy
4. Am I loved?
Thnks fr Th Mmrs-FOB (WOW!)
5. How can I achieve my highest potential?
Without You-Carly Smithson (ayos to ah.)
6. What should I do with my life?
I Don't Want To Wait-Paula Cole
7. Is everything going to be alright in the end?
Only One-Yellowcard (HAHAHA)
8. What is my best quality?
She Will Be Loved-Maroon 5 (NICE!)
9. How does my sex life look?
Gone Yesterday-FOB (HAHAHAHAHA)
10. What's the meaning of life?
Of All the Gin Joints in The World-FOB
11. What do people think of me?
The Carpal Tunnel of Love-FOB
12. Would I make a good lover?
The Music and the Misery-FOB (I like.)
13. How crazy am I?
I've Got a Dark Alley and A Bad Idea That Says You Should Shut Your Mouth-FOB
14. Will I have a good life in general?
Pretty in Punk-FOB
15. Can (insert name here) ever really love me?
Kiss Me-Sixpence None the Richer (WOOHOO!)
16. Can me and (insert name here) ever be more than friends?
17. What's going to happen to me this week?
18. Where will I be a year from now?
The Patron Saint of Liars and Fakes-FOB (OMG)
19. What is my fondest wish?
Get Busy Living or Get Busy Dying-FOB (hahahaha)
20. What is the love of my life doing at this very moment?
7 things-Miley Cyrus (OMG.)
21. How did my parents meet?
Dance Dance-FOB (nice.)
Wednesday, October 1
Wow, si Miley umaariba! HAHA. Isipin mo, kakasixteen ko lang e wala pa akong ganyan. Wala na ata ako sa uso ngayon. Hindi pa nagssweet sixteen e umaariba na talaga. Siguro kaya nagkakaron ng teenage pregnancies ay dahil sa mga photoshoot na ganito. Tingin niyo? Siguro yung mga nagppractice ng "deed" e nagpopose rin ala-Miley Cyrus bago nila gawin ito. Hahahaha.
Ibang klase talaga si Miley. While nagsscroll down ako sa HUB e yun yan ang napuntahan ko. Isa lang talaga masasabi ko, POSE KO YUNG HULI AH. hahahahaha. Di ba Katreena? Kaloka. Pero, sa pagkaseryoso at masabing may kabuluhan naman tong pinagsasabi ko at hindi lang porn pics ang nilalagay ko e eto, masyado bang maganda ang panty niya para ilagay sa Internet? Halos di na nakita buhok niya kasi puro baba, at kung hindi baba e taas naman. Eto ang mga picture na inilalagay ni Miley sa Myspace Account niya. Oh kamusta naman di ba? Gustong-gusto siya ng mga bata tapos eto ilalagay niya sa net. In time, magugulat nalang kayo na ang mga 6 year old girls e nagpopose na nang ganyan. Oh di ba?! Panalo! Hahahaha. Kung ako naman ang tatanungin, hindi naman Internet ang may kasalanan e. Nasa may gumagamit talaga yan. Bakit hindi mo ipost ang mga picture na matino ang mukha mo? Kadalasan nga, feeling ko ha, mas gusto pa ng mga Friendster users na makita ang mga alaga nila kesa yung mga mukha nila. Nakakapagod tingnan. Alam mo yun, imbis na mamuhay ng matino e mga katuksuhan pa ang napapala ng bata sa Internet.
Our Kids Want Smiley Miley
Syempre, sa Hub ko pa rin ito nakita. Tama nga naman. Alam niyo, hindi ko naman pagpupunteryahan si Miley kung hindi ganyan ang mga ginagawa niya. Plus, in general. Ganito na talaga ang sitwasyon. Puro sexual content ang nilalagay at akala nila e maganda tingnan yun. Unti-unti ay binabalewala natin ang mga itinuturo ng ating mahal na mga magulang. Hindi naman siguro masama maging liberated, wag lang over. Tsaka isipin pa rin natin ang moral values natin. After all e, tao pa rin tayo. There's goodness in everybody, it just depends on how they use it, sharing ng magaling kong kapatid kanina. Oh di ba?
Ang problema kasi ngayon e kapag teen ka na e, wala ka na paki sa mga tao sa paligid mo. Kahit ang ating mga magulang e paminsan nababalewala na. E kung try kaya kausapin ni Billy Ray si Miley? Anu kaya maging dialogue ng dalawa?
BILLY: Anak, may nakita akong pictures sa Internet na hindi kanais -nais. Anu masasabi mo dito?
MILEY: Ay shet. Sweetniblets!
HAHAHAHA. Walang paki e. Maganda rin kasi na makipagbonding naman tayo sa mga magulang natin di ba? Para hindi rin sila left out sa pagkikilala ng mga anak nila.
Kaya ngayon, itinatatapos ko ang walang kwentang blog post na ito sa pamamagitan ng pagpost ng pagstate sa inyo ng definition ng teenager:
Teenager: A young person, usually about 13 to 19 years old.
Grabe, bata pa tayo. Ienjoy natin 'to. Wag tayo masyadong magrush sa adulthood. We'll all become old and boring someday. :)