American Idol

Almost 6 years of watching American Idol, tonight was the first time my jaw dropped. LITERALLY. As I was watching AI tonight, (results night) I was expecting Allison and Matt to be in the bottom 2. Boy, was I mistaken. Turned out that the bottom 3 was KRIS, Matt and *tongue drops* ADAM. So I was fine because my bet, Danny Gokey is still safe and he will still compete in next week's showdown. After the annoying delays, Ryan Seacrest finally announced that Kris is safe and yes, ADAM AND MATT ARE THE BOTTOM 2. Crossing my fingers, I prayed that Matt would finally get booted out of the competition because he isn't that great of an artist unlike the other contestants.


I was totally right. Matt did get kicked off. FUN FUN FUN. :)

*I will post a pic once I get a hold of one. :)

Not enlisted.

I pre enlisted subjects online for my freshman year 1st sem.


I didn't get the block grant. Meaning I have to pick the classes myself. All the trouble. :(

Not a big deal since this is part of being independent right? So there.

:)

*Gala with friends on May 7! Excited. :)

Home away from Home

NAKAHANAP NA AKO NG DORM! At syempre, di talaga kami sa MyPlace kasi di ko maintindihan if hotel ba yun or dorm. HAHAHA :) Tapos ayun, after passing requirements for the medical certificate, nakuha ko na siya. We proceeded na sa MyPlace. First stop namin yun. Suprisingly, mas maganda siya sa actual kesa sa pictures sa net. Kaso maliit and mahal. P15k per person. At wala pang electricity at water, so yun. Punta naman kami sa Oracle Residences. Sorry pero di ko talaga to type. After that, we went to The Studio 87 Residences. Impressed ako sa biometric fingerprint access nila sa hallways, business center, fitness gym at yung room. MALAKI. Reasonable ang price kasi fully furnished na plus secured pa. May shuttle service na din which picks and drops off every hour. Masaya naman ako dun, plus pati parents ko so ayun. MAY DORM NA AKO!



At kamusta naman? Yan talaga ang nakita namin. Pretty di ba?
Ako super happy. Thank you my generous parents! :)

*Crossing fingers, Katreena. :) Sana roommates na tayo.

bipolar

I am ECSTATIC. Okay, obviously you see the change in my layout so that's the main reason why. I spent almost 5 hours fixing the damn thing. Seriously, who knew CSS codes could be so complicated? After hours of deliberating what to do and almost giving up, I finally found the problem. BIG YAY to me! However, I won't elaborate what the problem was, you'd laugh at me for that. HAHAHA I know I am laughing now.

I seriously think I am bipolar . One minute I'm happy and the next minute I'm not. What is wrong with me? I haven't quite gotten to a severe case yet. I'm not suicidal yet.Thank God. I'm seriously troubled because I want to talk to my friend, but I can't. And when I do finally talk to him, he blows me off. So there is reason to be bipolar now don't you think? Sometimes I wonder if I ever am a good friend. I know I'm selfish so that's gotta be a downside to my relationships. I ponder on these things because I have come to realize that after I share a secret or two with a friend, I find a way to break that good relationship. Seriously, what is wrong with me? I recently found out about my behavior by constantly analyzing my past friendships with other people. I tend to either break the trust, backstab them or just plain ignore them. I have come to the conclusion that I can't have many friends to share secrets with. All I need is one or two. So much for my dream of being a people person.

I seriously thought he couldn't resist me, and when he blew me off, it was a big slap to my ego. I mean, we are friends and I don't want to be bitter about the past mistakes. I don't want to turn into a Dan Scott. I'm trying to move on and forget all the hurt and pain or mistakes so that it doesn't trap me in the past. Guess I'm not the one who's bitter anymore.

Looking for places.

Being so far away from home is no problem for me. It's just that it's so hard to pick where I'll stay and I'm not used to doing everything on my own. All my life, I've learned to lean on my mom or house helpers to do things around the house. I'm not used to cooking, doing laundry or even cleaning. With this is mind, I don't know how the hell I'm gonna survive in QC. I will try, though for the sake of my education.

My mom and I were looking at dormitories around Katipunan(I don't like the UP area.). With my high end needs (I'm not complaining, I am just not used to having common bathrooms and the like), so I opted for a condo type dorm. Single occupancy would be fine with me, but since Katreena is also studying in Diliman, we might as well room together.

Tomorrow will be our ocular visits to the dorms my mom saw on the Internet. Yes, we want to make sure of the amenities and the units, who knows what they post in the sites are fake. So there. I am excited to see my new home for 4+ years since my parents want me to take up Law, (perfectly fine with that.) and I'll be staying in the QC area a little while longer. Who knows, I might like it there.

xoxo

WELCOME.

WELCOME EMPRESS! :)

I'm welcoming my ever so dear friend, Katreena to Blogspot. It's her 2nd time, I think. However, it's her first time owning a personal account. So, all you bloggers out there, try and give her site a little hey ho, okay?

P.S. AYAN, KATREENA! SPECIAL MENTION KA NA DIN. LOVE YOU, MY LAB. :) Enjoy Blogspot!

WELCOME NEW LIFE!

No worries.

I'm welcoming new life with open arms. I mean, I'm still the B and all, but you know. I'm toning down a bit. I want to be more, how do I say it, KIND. WHATEVER THAT IS. Kidding! :)

YOU KNOW YOU LOVE ME, guys. So keep commenting if you ever feel like it.

Unproductive

I AM SO UNPRODUCTIVE this summer. This summer, I planned to take guitar and driving lessons. Guess what? I haven't done any of those. I'm beginning to feel nauseous because of the heat and the boredom summer is currently giving me. This is the reason why I begin to think like a schizophrenic. Seriously, I am going down the drain here. I need something to do. So let me start off by blogging nonsense things in my nonsense blog.

Remember my blog entry way back last year? Wait, I'm digging it up in my archives. It was written last NOVEMBER 21, 2007. (Look for depressing, the title.) Who could forget that fateful day huh? I was so mad and hurt, I didn't care what I typed in my blog. And now, it's all coming back.

I HATE SECRETS.

Secrets are fun when they're all about FUN, FRIENDS and PARTYING. They're not fun, when you've got some creepy weird dude putting up some shit. Tell me, what do you do when you think you know a person, but find out you really don't? Let me tell you what. YOU SUCK IT UP. They're never gonna change, and you won't ever get to know them. You know why? That's the way they roll and like it. I thought I knew them. I guess I didn't. It would hurt if it were 2 years ago, when I was gullible and naive. It doesn't now and won't ever. You're quite content in your position and let me tell you, you're never going to get far in this world, what with all the secrets you have and the people who you think you have relationships with. I am going out on a limb here because I know you're going to see this and despise my pretty ass for writing this. I don't give a damn. I wish you were true from the beginning because that's what friends do. If you don't know how that is, you'll all end up sad and alone. To think I thought our friendship was worth saving.

As I held our picture in my hand, I wanted to crush, crumple and tear it apart. I stopped myself. Know why? It's the only reminder of you being the worst friend I could ever have.



YOU SICKEN ME. Good luck with all your nonsense endeavors.
YOU'LL NEED IT.

a letter

Dear ,

How do you know when you're in love?
How do you feel?
How do you think?
How do you speak?

Every single day, I still long for yesterday. I hope and pray that someday I might get to reach you again. Yet you made it stop.

All the hope, love and trust I felt for you vanished. And now, as my heart starts to question its own decisions, I begin to fall further away from you. There are times that I still want to reach you, but gone are the days that I want to love you.

I know I'll think of you every single day, but not how you want me to. My heart just gave up and maybe, the third time's not good enough.

I just don't know you, and I hate secrets.

Love,
J

OFFICIAL

It is official. I AM AN INCOMING BA PSYCHOLOGY STUDENT. What happened to my dreams of becoming a journalist? Let me tell you what, after I prayed sweat and blood to God, I did not get in Journalism. Why? I'm guessing I'm not meant for that course. See, when I first applied to UP Diliman, I picked BA JOURNALISM as my first choice, and BA PSYCHOLOGY as my second choice. When the results came out, no sign of Journalism ANYWHERE. However, I got waitlisted on my second choice. When I confirmed,(I was crossing my fingers then I swear) I did ask to be considered in BA PSYCHOLOGY, so maybe that one's my fault. Now, as I'm browsing through the curriculum, I'm beginning to regret my decision. OKAY, STOP. I will try to enjoy my course and besides, it's pre-Law anyway, which I'm planning to take. I am a bit excited about becoming a college student, but then again, I'm shaking in my seat right now. Gah, any tips?


By the way, here's the curriculum for BA PSYCHOLOGY:(tell me if you can understand any of this?)

BA Psychology Curriculum

Revised Effective First Semester 1992-93*

First Year
KomI/Com I Philosophy I History I Math II (a) Language Elective*	3 3 3 3 3 (15)		Kom II/Com II Soc Sci I Psych 101 Math 14 (a) History II	3 3 3 3 3 (15)
Second Year
Psychology 108* Hum I Psychology 110 Free Elective Com III	3 3 5 5 3 (19)		Social Science II Natural Science II* Psychology 115 Chemistry 16* Hum II	3 3 5 5 3 (19)
Third Year
Psychology 118 Psychology 150 Socio 101 / Anthro I Language Elective Nat Sci II / Geology 11* Math 100 (b)	5 3 3 3 3 5 (19)		Psychology 155 Psychology 162 Biology 11 Elective (c) Psychology 140	3 4 5 3 3 (19)
Fourth Year
STS Psychology 145 Psychology 160 P.I. 100 Elective (c) Elective (c)	3 3 4 3 3 3 (19)		Psychology 135 Psychology 171 Psychology 180 Philo 160 / 171 Elective (c) Elective (c)	4 3 3 3 3 3 (19)
Total Number of Units: 145

A BIG GOOD LUCK TO MY 4 YEARS IN UP DILIMAN!