I'm keeping something from you. I'm hiding something from all of you. You don't know it, nor will you ever know it. There is something inside of me that is slowly hurting me, killing me, eventually destroying my inner self albeit I like the feeling. I like feeling this way amongst other things. When can I finally stop enjoying feelings that will be my ultimate destruction?
Would it be effective if I just slash my wrists and never look the same again? Would that lessen the pain a bit?
Stop me. I don't know what to do.