Monday, October 25

needed

Like a toddler grabbing your hand to make you reach something for her, I want you to need me like that.

Is it wrong to continuously expect that I mean something to you?

The loneliness is killing me and the rain is of no help either. The memories are playing in my head, like an old film but still worth watching. And in any minute, it will make me cry. I make the tears stop before they even come because I know I am only hurting myself.

It's no use crying over you, but I still want to.

I want you to need me.
I want you to tell me how your day was.
I want you to laugh with me.
I want you to hug me and tell me that I'm the one who can take away all your stress.

I want to be needed.

But.

I know you don't need me.

Stop pining for something(someone?) you can't have.

2 comments:

The Constellation of Cancer said...

Janine, thanks for reading my latest post. I can relate too. : )

janinedelrosario said...

Aww thanks po! :)