Dear you

Dear you,

Why wasn't I enough? What is wrong with me? How could you choose someone new over someone who has seen you at your worst and still chose to love you? How could you pick someone novel over someone who knows you, who knows how to make you happy?

I will keep saying that you don't deserve me, but I didn't deserve you then. You loved me so much, how could that fade so easily? You tell me that possibly, in the future, we could be together. But, I don't want to wait for you. I don't want to be that pathetic. You are my soul mate, my best friend and my future. How could you just throw it all away?

I hope you don't end up with her. And I hope I find someone who could love me as much as you did, but would never choose to leave me. Because I don't deserve being left behind. I don't deserve this at all.